There is always someone who has your back…

even if it is the energy surrounding you. You are never alone, even though you may feel like it. Situations arise and often we feel that there is no one who will support us through it, but the fact is, we don’t need someone to support us through it. If we just work hard through it, put good energy out about it (whether an outcome, or getting out of, or a gentle goodbye), we will find ourselves on the other side of it without needing anyone else.

Now that isn’t to say having someone else there would be nice. We all know that does not always happen though. The emotions and energy we feel when someone is there however, are things we can draw on for ourselves when we feel alone. That sense of support, companionship, trust, relief that there is someone who can help us…those are all things that can come from within, from the energy around us, and from our own wants and desires.

I am about to embark on some new adventures that I hope bring me to a place of peace, financial freedom, and travel ability. Right now I teach High School…that does not lend itself to any of those. This is the first time I have actually put it out there. I haven’t said anything to anyone as I begin taking classes and learning some new things, and I am working through my Brendon Burchard #hpxlife and the new planner that I just received. With these tools in my life I am hoping to find the energy, the dedication, and the intention to be the best me, with better goals.

Even if I find myself not being able to accomplish it all, I know that the learning I am going to be doing will benefit me where I am at. No matter what I win, I move forward, and I become a better me. This is all I can ask for, moving forward to a better me; the rest will fall into place around me as it is supposed to.

Today’s The Universe has Your Back card: The Universe Has MY Back

Intention: Trust that is will work the way it should

Personal Reflection: “Feeling alone/exposed is something we’ve all felt at some point. Not always, but vulnerable, attacked, or just left to face life with no help. This is a reminder that you are never truly alone. There is a greater energy, a greater being around us who, who always has us covered. Trusting that we are where we need to be when we need to be there is important. So is being open, receptive and willing to listen to what is being offered. The Universe has my back, it is time to grow, to shine, to be the best me, and let the rest go by the wayside.”

The Human Experience

We are so much more than our bodies. Yes, I said it. I know that it is difficult to believe, and hard to remember, but it is true. Our bodies carry our spirits and our spirits are here to learn. We are having a human experience, to grow within. These emotions, these experiences help us to become the people we want to be, will help to create the peace within that we are searching for.

Sometimes, it is difficult. When your body hurts, when you have a headache, or something isn’t functioning right it is difficult to remember that we are more than just the body, that we are energy and spirit, and that the body is a temporary thing for us to learn in, and from. Instead of focusing on the pain itself, or our inability to do something we want to do, we need to be working on what we can learn from it, what it is meant to show us about our inner strength and those around us.

We are here to get closer to love, our spirits are growing and wanting to be part of something larger. When the body is damaged is can be overwhelming, making us forget that this is all temporary, that our spirit is what we need to be focused on. We are creating a better place, by being better people.

That is not to say that we should be ignoring pain in the physical body, or not nurturing it, for it holds the spirit and we want it to be around for as long as possible to learn as much as possible. It simply means we want to remember that we are so munch more than just the physicality of the body itself. Yes, we want to nurture and nourish it, but we don’t want to become so focused on it that we forget what we are all about.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: I am a spirit having a human experience and I’m here to get closer to love.

Intention: I will allow the love surrounding me to enhance my experiences.

Personal Reflection: Understanding that I am more Ethan just the physical body I have travel in is always difficult, especially on days when I hurt or ache (like today with a migraine). Keeping in mind that love is the reason I am here will help keep my days on track. As I’ve talked about before love is more than romance, it is all things. Also, showing caring, empathy, and compassion bring you closer to love, letting others know someone cares is important and helps create a surrounding sense of love, allowing our spirit to continue its growth and understanding of the world.

I Control My Perspective

What I see, how I see it, what is makes me feel/think, that is all within my control. There is nothing buy my own thoughts, feelings, and look on the world that tells me how to see something, except of course when I allow those things to jade me. We often want others to tell us what they see, or to let us know when we see something different. The problem with that is that it can skew our own perception, influencing us to see things that aren’t there, or that aren’t accurate.

When we rely on our own instincts, on our beliefs to show us what is out there we are much better for it. This is how we can control the perspective from which things come at us, or with which we handle things thrown at us. If I want to be angry and negative when something changes, that is a choice I make, and yet I can also choose to handle it with grace and positivity, depending on how I choose to look at it. Do I see it as an obstacle that is unsurmountable, or rather a detour which is going to allow me to see something new and different altogether? Those are choices we make. Those are things we are in command of.

My belief in The Universe as energy and growth from all things being connected, means that I should be choosing to see what is truly there, and not just what I am being shown. Yet often I am clouded in how I view things. I allow the perceptions of others, the “truth” of what my eyes show me, to cloud what is there, rather than relying on why my instincts are saying, or closing my eyes and allowing the energy to tell me what is really going on.

This is an area of growth for me. Something I am promising to do, especially in my day job. Often times I glance over a classroom full of teenagers and I see…teenagers. That means I am missing the kid who didn’t get breakfast, or the one who just had a nasty breakup. I need to be controlling the perspective and trusting the energy that is being shown, if I open myself to it.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: When I lean on certainty and faith I change my mind about the world I see.

Intention: I will trust the Universe to show me what I need to see.

Personal Reflection: “I need to work on opening my mind to seeing beyond what my eyes are showing me. There is so much more and if I rely only on my eyes I will miss what I should be focusing on. As I am listening to meditations while I drive I have discovered my commute is faster and easier, because my eyes are not the only thing seeing. Trusting the energy to guide my “seeing” will help me all areas of growth.

Reminders…already

Today was the first day back to the real job, no students yet, but here I am, fixing up the classroom and getting ready. I teach at a school that is on a 4×4 block, meaning I have all new kids tomorrow, and new classes. So daunting to have two first days in a school year, but I’ve doing this for 7 years now, and getting used to the daunting is old hat.

What I am also used to is the apathy and blah I feel when it is time, after the break, to come back. This has, unfortunately led me to already not follow the routine I am setting for myself. Yep, I had a whole plan for 15 minutes of meditation this morning, and I hit snooze instead. Day 1 is a fail…good things tomorrow can be a Day 1 again. Cause wow! Anyone else ever have this issue? The desire, the want is there, and then you follow through with nothing.

I am the person in control. Brendon Burchard calls it command, my cards tell me I am the Dreamer of my Dream. Whatever you want to call it, it simply means that the choices we make in our lives we need to own. THIS choice, right now, is mine to make, and how I make it will effect the rest of my day, my energy, my week maybe. So make sure you are making the right choice when you are presented with them. I am going to…or at least try, from now on.

My reading today was a reminder that I need to be taking control and wrangling the feelings, the blah, the maybe tomorrows out of the way, and to command that which is mine to command, the Dream.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: I am the Dreamer of my Dream

Intention: I am in control of what I do, and the choice I make

Personal Reflection: “So here it is again. I know why. I didn’t do any of what I promised myself or the Universe I would do this morning. I was lazy yesterday and didn’t follow through on things I needed done for today. That led to me not being able to do some of the things I needed this morning. While everyday is a new one, clearly my energy responded with the cards that I needed. I am the only one in control and I need to get through my head. If I’m serious about change, I need to take control and mean what I say. Set the routine and follow through, do not get derailed, do not get lazy. I have control of the dream, and I need to make it happen, not let it die.”

Love Supports Me Growing

We are back on that universal idea of Love again today. The one that shows us love is more than just a romance word, but a word of support, of guidance, of encouragement. A word that encompasses so many more nuances than romance leaves us to believe.

We all know love means more, after all we have others in life we love: our parents, our children, our best friends, those people who have wormed their way into our hearts from somewhere. However, we rarely apply it to the things we do. How many of us can say we Love our jobs (and if you can you are very lucky)? How many of us can say we love our house? How many of us can truly say we feel that our dreams and aspiration are supported by love (from outside of us)? These are the questions we need to be asking, because if we aren’t answering in the affirmative, we may need to be reevaluating. Whether that is our command of our dreams, or our intentional actions, or our “Get It Done” attitude towards what we are doing, or not doing, a hard look at why we don’t feel supported in all those areas by love would be a good idea.

We often have jobs, houses, and dreams that we simply got to, or think about. It is rare that those are places and things we love. Yet, those are the things that should be inspiring us to be better, to live better, to be energized, to want to do things for others. So why aren’t they? How can we make them those centers of energy and love that make us want to grow? Love is a good place to start.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: There is a stream of love supporting my dreams.

Intention: I believe I am supported with love in what I do.

Personal Reflection: “As always the energy you put out is what you get back. I spent 8+ hours yesterday working on getting our room cleaned and rearranged. I have a vision of what it should be both for us to actually function in it and for the sacred space needed to grow our dreams forward. My changes and work were met with great joy and surprise and support. As I talked about modeling the small stuff, to hopefully get some better habits formed in both of us, the response was even positive – this can work with love and intention – everyone’s dreams are important, and as long as they are love fueled and supported they have a much better chance of coming to fruition.”

So…..

It happens.  I missed a day. I was doing so well too! However, I have decided not to worry about it.  I realized it right around 11 p.m. last night and decided I was too tired to type something up.  It had really been one of those days.

I am a reader.  I love books.  The issue when I read is that I tune everything and everyone out.  I get so focused that I forget the real world is happening.  I had taken a break from reading last week to see what it felt like.  Go figure, dishes got done, things happened with the hubby, grades were inputted, litter was cleaned and the blog was going strong.  Yesterday, I fell into a book series, actually two.  This means I am not up moving, I forget to do the things I need/want to do and I just read.  Not really healthy, at all.

This also leads to short tempers, miscommunications (I’m not actually listening when people are talking), arguments and of course nothing happening.  By 11 p.m. I was truly wondering who would miss me if I wasn’t here today. Hubby and I had argued and then he left for work (early) so we didn’t really resolve, although we did text, my oldest child can’t make Mother’s Day, I did something to upset the daughter and she told the youngest  she “needs space”, although I can’t actually recall talking with her recently, and of course the argument.

Tears were my companion as I went to sleep last night, I woke up multiple times in the middle of the night, sometimes with anxiety, sometimes still crying.  Good news, here I am today.  Kids have projects to work on, AP exams to review for and the end of the year to look forward to.  My resolution, get through the day.

I pulled a tarot card today (something else I had not done yesterday), got the 3 of Pentacles again. Guess I need to be looking at the amazing kids I have, let them be busy in their own lives and minds, and figure out the new journey in front of me.  I must have done something right, 3 of Pentacles says it all paid off in a positive way.

Today the oils are Breathe Easier and a Citrus Cream Blend.  Happy scents, happy moods and just maybe a happy day!

Have a great one…I promise to get back to informative stuff soon.

Creating Relationships

As an empath the two words of the title make me cringe.  People are scary.  You never know what they are going through, what is happening or has happened to them and their emotions can be overwhelming.  Weird, you may say, for someone who teaches high school to be an empath.  I won’t say weird, just…difficult, daily.

I have been lucky enough with my schooling at Sacred Mists to learn how to effectively shield (when I remember) and even when I don’t, how to off the emotions quickly with walks outside, and grounding.  These have become especially important as the children of today change with society.  The families they come from look different from the kids I dealt with 19 years ago.  The world is changing, and it affects everyone.

As a teacher and an empath I also have a natural affinity for saving.  I would bring every last one of those kids home with me to love and nurture if I could, but I can’t.  What I can do is create an atmosphere in my classroom that gives them that.  Yes I teach them how to write an essay and be an active reader with their short stories and non-fiction articles.  Yes I teach them how to think outside the box and introduce them to important quotes that have meaning in today’s world as much as when they were said in 1902.  I also teach them that there are safe places to express ideas not everyone agrees with.  I teach them that respect in a classroom means allowing others to have different ideas and to not put them down.  We work on behaving like civilized human beings and not the apes in the zoo, we learn that not everything must be turned into a joke or a racial issue.

These are things that I didn’t have to do just a few years ago, but now, today, tomorrow it is where all my energy is going.  I have always been able to establish relationships with my students.  That is not a hard thing for me to do.  However, I have never had to create them.  This term, I am having to create them.  I am learning new things, and how to look at situations and people from different angles as I work hard at creating relationships with kids I have nothing in common with.  We are finding common ground and learning that we can live and like each other.  I write this 2 days into a brand new term with brand new students.  It feels like summer should be tomorrow.  I am off today for a family reason (see next post) and in two days it felt like I needed it.

Tomorrow, I will be back with new energy and working just as hard to keep creating those relationships.  I will also have the diffuser going, the crystals out working overtime and I will be wearing jade. I have all the standard stones on my desk already (amethyst, quartz (in all colors and shades) labrodite, emerald, ruby, kyonite, selonite…you know the ones everyone knows and uses.  The kids love those.  However, I am wearing jade for its encouragement of seeing oneself as you truly are and dispelling of negative thoughts.  For me, when I am creating these relationships, I need to be me.  These kids need to know that someone genuinely wants to know them, help them and move them forward.  Jade allows me to be protected and still be me.

Do you find you have to create relationships or do they come naturally to you?  Are you a fixer like I am or are you able to just look past and move forward?  Do you have any tips, tricks or guidance for me? Cause I’m taking all the help I can get!

Blessed Be!