There is always someone who has your back…

even if it is the energy surrounding you. You are never alone, even though you may feel like it. Situations arise and often we feel that there is no one who will support us through it, but the fact is, we don’t need someone to support us through it. If we just work hard through it, put good energy out about it (whether an outcome, or getting out of, or a gentle goodbye), we will find ourselves on the other side of it without needing anyone else.

Now that isn’t to say having someone else there would be nice. We all know that does not always happen though. The emotions and energy we feel when someone is there however, are things we can draw on for ourselves when we feel alone. That sense of support, companionship, trust, relief that there is someone who can help us…those are all things that can come from within, from the energy around us, and from our own wants and desires.

I am about to embark on some new adventures that I hope bring me to a place of peace, financial freedom, and travel ability. Right now I teach High School…that does not lend itself to any of those. This is the first time I have actually put it out there. I haven’t said anything to anyone as I begin taking classes and learning some new things, and I am working through my Brendon Burchard #hpxlife and the new planner that I just received. With these tools in my life I am hoping to find the energy, the dedication, and the intention to be the best me, with better goals.

Even if I find myself not being able to accomplish it all, I know that the learning I am going to be doing will benefit me where I am at. No matter what I win, I move forward, and I become a better me. This is all I can ask for, moving forward to a better me; the rest will fall into place around me as it is supposed to.

Today’s The Universe has Your Back card: The Universe Has MY Back

Intention: Trust that is will work the way it should

Personal Reflection: “Feeling alone/exposed is something we’ve all felt at some point. Not always, but vulnerable, attacked, or just left to face life with no help. This is a reminder that you are never truly alone. There is a greater energy, a greater being around us who, who always has us covered. Trusting that we are where we need to be when we need to be there is important. So is being open, receptive and willing to listen to what is being offered. The Universe has my back, it is time to grow, to shine, to be the best me, and let the rest go by the wayside.”

Reminders…already

Today was the first day back to the real job, no students yet, but here I am, fixing up the classroom and getting ready. I teach at a school that is on a 4×4 block, meaning I have all new kids tomorrow, and new classes. So daunting to have two first days in a school year, but I’ve doing this for 7 years now, and getting used to the daunting is old hat.

What I am also used to is the apathy and blah I feel when it is time, after the break, to come back. This has, unfortunately led me to already not follow the routine I am setting for myself. Yep, I had a whole plan for 15 minutes of meditation this morning, and I hit snooze instead. Day 1 is a fail…good things tomorrow can be a Day 1 again. Cause wow! Anyone else ever have this issue? The desire, the want is there, and then you follow through with nothing.

I am the person in control. Brendon Burchard calls it command, my cards tell me I am the Dreamer of my Dream. Whatever you want to call it, it simply means that the choices we make in our lives we need to own. THIS choice, right now, is mine to make, and how I make it will effect the rest of my day, my energy, my week maybe. So make sure you are making the right choice when you are presented with them. I am going to…or at least try, from now on.

My reading today was a reminder that I need to be taking control and wrangling the feelings, the blah, the maybe tomorrows out of the way, and to command that which is mine to command, the Dream.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: I am the Dreamer of my Dream

Intention: I am in control of what I do, and the choice I make

Personal Reflection: “So here it is again. I know why. I didn’t do any of what I promised myself or the Universe I would do this morning. I was lazy yesterday and didn’t follow through on things I needed done for today. That led to me not being able to do some of the things I needed this morning. While everyday is a new one, clearly my energy responded with the cards that I needed. I am the only one in control and I need to get through my head. If I’m serious about change, I need to take control and mean what I say. Set the routine and follow through, do not get derailed, do not get lazy. I have control of the dream, and I need to make it happen, not let it die.”

I Did It!

Merry Meet!!

I hope your Monday is going well.  Over the weekend I managed to get the meditation/altar/exercise space cleaned and I sorted through all my clothes and got rid of 4 bags of stuff.  I am sure there is more I can do, but for now it is a start.

Everything isn’t all organized yet, that’s for the next couple of evenings when hubby is at work.  However, there is a start, and clean space on the floor, which means I can at least keep moving, get grounded and return to a state of being me. This is important!

In addition to the hours spent getting that space cleaned I managed to go look at some open houses for ideas on flooring, run to Costco and spend too much money.  On Sunday we even managed to run up to the wineries and grab our quarterly boxes, as well as find some bubbly for Mother’s Day.  All in all not a bad weekend.

I ran a diffuser with grapefruit and clary sage mixed while I was cleaning.   Grapefruit essential oil helps remind us of those life-giving and inspiring moments of our lives. Letting your toes soak into the ocean, sipping coffee on a quiet morning, landing a job or getting on a plane to an exotic location. Grapefruit’s unique properties uplift, revive and inspire healthy lifestyles (Eden’s Garden).

Clary sage is considered to be one of the top essential oils for hormones, especially in women. Many claims have been made as to its benefits when dealing with cramps, heavy menstrual cycles, hot flashes and hormonal imbalances. It’s also known for its ability to increase circulation, support the digestive system, improve eye health and fight leukemia. Clary sage is one of the most healthful essential oils, with anticonvulsive, antidepressant, antifungal, anti-infectious, antiseptic, antispasmodic, astringent and anti-inflammatory properties. It’s also a nerve tonic and sedative with soothing and warming components (draxe.com/clarysage).

The delightful blend of these two oils made for a perfect place to keep busy and stay focused.  I felt like I was moving forward and not stagnating, and that I was helping not only myself but my husband.  I watched The Matrix trilogy and kept that fighting, never give up mindset through the whole of the weekend.

Today’s tarot: Three of Pentacles – keyword: planning

The three of Pentacles signifies a culmination of your efforts – your planning, hard work and dedication have paid off.  But the journey continues.  what hidden surprises await you as continue forward? There is nothing to fear as you continue forward, for this card shows you are on the right path!

Meditation

We all know we should, even if it isn’t part of a religious practice, it is now common knowledge that meditation, or purposeful breathing, is a practice every person should put into their day for at least 15 minutes.

The Mayo Clinic says “The emotional benefits of meditation can include:

Meditation is a simple practice in its purpose.  It simply helps us keep grounded and do a check in with ourselves. We can stay present better, our minds don’t wander as much or worry as much if we meditate.

However, the practicality of incorporating meditation into the busy lives we all have is not quite as simple.  One would think, given that I am a practicing pagan/Wiccan that I would make this a part of my daily life.  The truth is I am also a full time High School teacher, a mom of 4 boys (2 of whom are at home still), and a wife. What that means in reality is that when I have 15 minutes, I don’t sit and meditate. I have it on my planner as a daily practice, but I haven’t been able to check it off in weeks.  I have three apps on my phone, two of which remind me I need to do this; I simply snooze them.

I am very aware that I need to get this practice back into my daily routines.  My feelings of being unsettled, ungrounded and flighty would all go away.  I also know that to do this I need to spend about 5 hours cleaning the space in my bedroom where my altar and meditation space is set up.  This has turned into the “house everything not in use” space for us. That alone is enough to make me give up.

This ties into yesterday’s post about everyday being a new day.  Today, when my husband goes to work (so really tonight), I clean my room until it is where I want it to be and where I need it.  My mental health isn’t horrid, but it is enough that it is beginning to wear on me.  When that happens, things slip and slide into oblivion.  I don’t want to clean, I don’t want to get off the couch, I don’t want to do anything.  This is a spot I have been in often lately, but I am working on it.

Today is the New Day/Fresh Start I was talking about yesterday.