Meditation

We all know we should, even if it isn’t part of a religious practice, it is now common knowledge that meditation, or purposeful breathing, is a practice every person should put into their day for at least 15 minutes.

The Mayo Clinic says “The emotional benefits of meditation can include:

Meditation is a simple practice in its purpose.  It simply helps us keep grounded and do a check in with ourselves. We can stay present better, our minds don’t wander as much or worry as much if we meditate.

However, the practicality of incorporating meditation into the busy lives we all have is not quite as simple.  One would think, given that I am a practicing pagan/Wiccan that I would make this a part of my daily life.  The truth is I am also a full time High School teacher, a mom of 4 boys (2 of whom are at home still), and a wife. What that means in reality is that when I have 15 minutes, I don’t sit and meditate. I have it on my planner as a daily practice, but I haven’t been able to check it off in weeks.  I have three apps on my phone, two of which remind me I need to do this; I simply snooze them.

I am very aware that I need to get this practice back into my daily routines.  My feelings of being unsettled, ungrounded and flighty would all go away.  I also know that to do this I need to spend about 5 hours cleaning the space in my bedroom where my altar and meditation space is set up.  This has turned into the “house everything not in use” space for us. That alone is enough to make me give up.

This ties into yesterday’s post about everyday being a new day.  Today, when my husband goes to work (so really tonight), I clean my room until it is where I want it to be and where I need it.  My mental health isn’t horrid, but it is enough that it is beginning to wear on me.  When that happens, things slip and slide into oblivion.  I don’t want to clean, I don’t want to get off the couch, I don’t want to do anything.  This is a spot I have been in often lately, but I am working on it.

Today is the New Day/Fresh Start I was talking about yesterday.

Behind…always

Do you ever feel like you are never going to get everything on your list done? Like, there is so much on any given day, and whatever doesn’t get done rolls to the next day, but there is already a list there that would have taken the whole day?  I am in that spot.  I do not feel like I am ever going to get caught up or have everything done.  

It seems the dishes are a twice a day chore, which then takes over the spot of something else…and the accomplishment of getting the kitchen all done a few weeks ago, yeah well it is now in the same state as it was before I started.  So, when I wanted to be cleaning another room, I am back in the kitchen re-doing that.

In addition, I brought home real work, not Sacred Mists or housework, but actual essays that need to be graded, and some lesson plans that need to get written (I don’t see any of this happening).  So I am behind in work, home and play.  Feeling completely overwhelmed and like I can’t begin to take a breath, I want to just quit. Yep, you read that right, I want to quit.  

However, that is not really an option, obviously.  I am going to take the time to write the blog, meditate and re-center/ground and then take that energy and begin tackling everything that needs to be done.  I can only do what I can get done, and I need to focus on the fact that I am trying.  I will light a candle, start the diffuser and keep myself sane (I hope).

What do you do when you are overwhelmed?  Do you ever want to just quit?  Don’t!  Remember you are not alone in that.  Come visit and leave a message if you feel that way.  We can talk through it.