Monday is as Monday does!

Yep, we have arrived at Monday.  I have discovered that Mondays come with their own unique set of issues.  One that I discovered today, language.  My seniors were finishing up their presentations.  Friday they had amazing presentations, great speech patterns, despite being nervous, and no language slippage.  Today…well let’s just say I had some great presentations that received poor marks due to poor speaking, inappropriate language, and slang!!!! Yes, slang in a formal presentation and project.  *sigh*

I know that the world is different for those who are younger, I teach high school and have for many, many years.  However, I also believe that if you are given a set of instructions, time to work in the classroom where questions can be answered by both the facilitator and those working around you, you should be able to create something according to those directions. Maybe I am just out of touch, but last time I checked, if I am asked to do something a specific way and I don’t, there are consequences.

After several false starts today, my students finally realized I was going to make them do their presentation until they met the guidelines, or they were taking a loss in points.  Most opted to re-do their presentations.  Some however, were content to just take a loss in points.  The understanding of why putting the work in to do something right, simply didn’t compute for them.

I ended up having to put a happy blend into the diffuser for my own soul.  In addition, I took several small trips to the outside so that I could let go of the frustration.  I took in the cool, crisp air and let go of the feelings building inside.  I have to realize I have done what I can, and continue to offer them the chance to grow and learn.  If they choose not to take the chance given, there is not much I can do about it.  Thank goodness I have a great green space right outside of my classroom door.  I can ground, center and come back in ready to tackle the next thing.

This weekend I accomplished nothing and it felt wonderful.  Today marks the beginning of a new week, and a new start.  I am going to stay the positive route, keep my mind and body moving forward and find some new blends and mixes for the diffuser.  Lavender and immune are still going at home as hubby still isn’t well, but I will be back soon with something new!

Today’s Tarot: Eight of Pentacles – Slow, steady work…labor intensive but commit with a sincere effort.

So…..

It happens.  I missed a day. I was doing so well too! However, I have decided not to worry about it.  I realized it right around 11 p.m. last night and decided I was too tired to type something up.  It had really been one of those days.

I am a reader.  I love books.  The issue when I read is that I tune everything and everyone out.  I get so focused that I forget the real world is happening.  I had taken a break from reading last week to see what it felt like.  Go figure, dishes got done, things happened with the hubby, grades were inputted, litter was cleaned and the blog was going strong.  Yesterday, I fell into a book series, actually two.  This means I am not up moving, I forget to do the things I need/want to do and I just read.  Not really healthy, at all.

This also leads to short tempers, miscommunications (I’m not actually listening when people are talking), arguments and of course nothing happening.  By 11 p.m. I was truly wondering who would miss me if I wasn’t here today. Hubby and I had argued and then he left for work (early) so we didn’t really resolve, although we did text, my oldest child can’t make Mother’s Day, I did something to upset the daughter and she told the youngest  she “needs space”, although I can’t actually recall talking with her recently, and of course the argument.

Tears were my companion as I went to sleep last night, I woke up multiple times in the middle of the night, sometimes with anxiety, sometimes still crying.  Good news, here I am today.  Kids have projects to work on, AP exams to review for and the end of the year to look forward to.  My resolution, get through the day.

I pulled a tarot card today (something else I had not done yesterday), got the 3 of Pentacles again. Guess I need to be looking at the amazing kids I have, let them be busy in their own lives and minds, and figure out the new journey in front of me.  I must have done something right, 3 of Pentacles says it all paid off in a positive way.

Today the oils are Breathe Easier and a Citrus Cream Blend.  Happy scents, happy moods and just maybe a happy day!

Have a great one…I promise to get back to informative stuff soon.

Seekers Need to Choose

As a mentor you learn that your guidance comes by helping your seekers on their path with your experience. You can’t force them onto your path. You might give them things that you’ve found helpful and useful, but they have to walk the path they are on.

As teachers we try to force kids to learn what we have been told to teach them. They don’t get to choose what they want to learn. We say here read this, learn this and be on our path of learning. We don’t say what would you like to learn and how can I make sure you get the necessary skills.

The problem is what we try to force them to learn can be uninteresting and disengaging to them. Occasionally  we hit a gold mine and they are all right there, and then for that brief glimmer you can see it…the learning, the engagement, the joy. It warms your heart, and then the next moment all that is gone.

Today I asked my kids if they could study anything what would it be? History of gangs, being a nurse, animation, professional …(insert sport).  So now I have a starting point, somewhere to connect Martin Luther King, Jr. to what they want to learn. A place where what I need to teach, meets them on their path.

Like those I mentor in Wicca and at Sacred Mists, teaching is a passion. When I lose my kids and I lose myself because of disconnect I come back to what I know best and who I am. So looking at my students as seekers changes how I approach them. Yesterday was a challenge. Today was a beginning.

What Is Your Role?

“The seeker sets the goals in response to their own needs, their own inner calls.  Mentors provide the perspective of long experience and study, help seekers understand obstacles, and make suggestions for further progress.”  ~ Judy Harrow, Spiritual Mentoring: A Pagan’s Guide

When reading this originally it resonated so deeply that I immediately highlighted it and wrote notes on all the people in my life I wanted to send it to.  I even sent it off to the Principal of a new type of school, as he doesn’t have teachers, only mentors.  It resonated with his vision, with my own beliefs, with those of so many people in education that I know, that is made my worlds meld.

This book is required reading for one of my lessons at Sacred Mists.  I am working on my 3rd degree Priestess course and my own personal callings have now been completely melded.  I am going to be saving money to start school online (as I mentioned when I began the blog) to be a pagan spiritual counselor and teacher.  I cannot even begin to describe the contentment in my soul when I began reading this book.

As a teacher/mentor I am always a seeker.  I think that is one of the most important things to know about those who have a calling for this life.  We never stop learning, about ourselves, others, things that interest us.  In addition, we want to share the knowledge we have and the experience we have gained.  We have a knack for it, and we look for those we feel we could help.  The nice thing about that is the energy we put out often draws in those who need us the most.

As I am reading this book, I am not even opening my lesson.  I don’t know what questions will be asked of me, or what I am supposed to be answering.  I don’t feel the need because this book resonates within my soul, within my energy and completes me in a way that I never expected.  I know the answers will simply be there when I need them.  The knowledge is now attained and I don’t need to worry.

I am also looking at my teaching for this year.  Am I truly doing what I am being called to do?  Am I applying this the way the students need?  The answer is no.  Not with my younger classes.  I can see what they need, but they can’t.  It makes it difficult when they don’t know what they need.  I am doing my best, and I am going to be looking at things with new eyes as I continue through the book, and even read it a second time.  How can I apply these to where I am and the students I come into contact with daily.

I need to view them as seekers, even if they don’t really know what they are seeking.