So…..

It happens.  I missed a day. I was doing so well too! However, I have decided not to worry about it.  I realized it right around 11 p.m. last night and decided I was too tired to type something up.  It had really been one of those days.

I am a reader.  I love books.  The issue when I read is that I tune everything and everyone out.  I get so focused that I forget the real world is happening.  I had taken a break from reading last week to see what it felt like.  Go figure, dishes got done, things happened with the hubby, grades were inputted, litter was cleaned and the blog was going strong.  Yesterday, I fell into a book series, actually two.  This means I am not up moving, I forget to do the things I need/want to do and I just read.  Not really healthy, at all.

This also leads to short tempers, miscommunications (I’m not actually listening when people are talking), arguments and of course nothing happening.  By 11 p.m. I was truly wondering who would miss me if I wasn’t here today. Hubby and I had argued and then he left for work (early) so we didn’t really resolve, although we did text, my oldest child can’t make Mother’s Day, I did something to upset the daughter and she told the youngest  she “needs space”, although I can’t actually recall talking with her recently, and of course the argument.

Tears were my companion as I went to sleep last night, I woke up multiple times in the middle of the night, sometimes with anxiety, sometimes still crying.  Good news, here I am today.  Kids have projects to work on, AP exams to review for and the end of the year to look forward to.  My resolution, get through the day.

I pulled a tarot card today (something else I had not done yesterday), got the 3 of Pentacles again. Guess I need to be looking at the amazing kids I have, let them be busy in their own lives and minds, and figure out the new journey in front of me.  I must have done something right, 3 of Pentacles says it all paid off in a positive way.

Today the oils are Breathe Easier and a Citrus Cream Blend.  Happy scents, happy moods and just maybe a happy day!

Have a great one…I promise to get back to informative stuff soon.

Family Time

 

You may have noticed I am not posting as often as I want. First, I haven’t quite gotten the hand of writing and then scheduling a post. Second, I love to write them as I want to.  Now this doesn’t mean I won’t figure out the scheduling thing, but it does mean that sometimes there are two in one day.

I made a promise to blog daily.  I am working on that promise.  Sometimes though family comes first.  The past few weeks that was the case. There were things happening and the snowball effect came into play.

A few weeks ago I couldn’t find the official embossed copy of my step-son 1’s birth certificate (which he was going to need).  I stayed up way past bed-time on a work night looking for it while my husband was at work.  What that meant though was poor hubby had to find it when he got home from work.  So after a 12 hour night shift, he spent 2+ hours looking for the birth certificate.  He found it, in the most ridiculously easy of places of course, but it was way past his sleep time on a day when he had to work the night again.

I then rush out of work and home to see step-son a before his recruiter picks him up only to discover the recruiter is running late.  This is awesome in my opinion because I get to spend some quality time talking with kiddo about the upcoming physical and swear-in process, of which he is nervous because he knows nothing about it. I, very fortunately, have had several former students go through it.  So onto the phone I go and onto speaker said students go and discussions ensue about the physical, the process and the ceremony.

Recruiter comes to get step-son and off they go.  Now, through all of this, said husband is not sleeping.  He tried to sleep after finding birth certificate, but only slept for 30 minutes.  Lots of reasons, main one I think being he didn’t want to miss kiddo getting picked up. So, worked a 12 hour night shift, slept 30 minutes, must work another 12 hour night shift…oh boy.

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Now I spend some time with tired and cranky husband.  We talk, go get the mail, do some very basic tasks as that is all his brain can do.  We cuddle and talk some more, then he gets ready for work.  It is decided I will drive him and pick him up.  I had taken today off so that I can be at the swear in ceremony (NOT going to miss that).

Now son 2 comes home with girlfriend.  We stop and eat pizza for dinner and chat with them.  Husband shows them a gross open heart video from a kiddo he has and they all have a good ooh and ahh over it.  Talk a little school, a little gaming, some about the internship and job prospects of the culinary world (which son 2 is going into) and let him know I will be taking husband to work.

While none of this seems important and seems very mundane, I feel like I have been hit by a school bus.  It was only day 2 of the school term where I had all new students (we are on a block schedule so we teach one set of class from August to December for 90 minutes each class and that equals 1 traditional year of curriculum.  Then January – June we get all new classes and all new kids.  It is like having 2 new school years in one school calendar) and I am teaching new to me classes.

What that means is when I get home from dropping hubby off at work, and feed the dogs, talk with son 2 and girlfriend for 15 minutes, I am ready to pass out…and it is 9:00 p.m. It also means that the blog for yesterday (see previous post) didn’t get done until this morning and today’s blog, which seems to be all about me, is right on its heels.

What today’s blog is really meant to do is to remind us all that life happens.  It is okay if something gets bumped a little.  Sometimes family needs to be in front of everything, because it can’t wait.  In those times, that is what we need to do.  It is just the fun, created family time that is needed.  When family says TIME, it will push its way forward and into whatever else you have planned and you need to listen.

I am off now to figure out how to schedule this to publish in a bit.  Then I’m going to watch Step-Son 1 swear into the Navy.  For me, that is all I need to focus on today.

How do you handle family time that forces its way in?  What do you do when you realize you need to focus a little more on what is calling and a little less on what you had planned?

 

Working and “Working”

 

So today I wanted to take a moment to address those who take on much,  not necessarily  too much, but maybe sometimes we take it all on.  I know that I work full-time as a high school teacher, who gives my personal number to the kids and other teachers, as well as email of course. I am also part of an amazing online magickal school, Sacred Mists.

I have been a part of Sacred Mists for 6 years.  I have completed my Level One and Level Two Priestess courses and am currently working on my Level Three.  With that move up and time spent there it brings more and more responsibility.  I have taken on a number of leadership roles in the past year at Sacred Mists and find myself often “working” on these things.

One of the questions I recently had to ask myself, as I stepped up to take on even more responsibility at the online school, was when is it too much?  At what point does it interfere with family, with personal time, with “real” work? Now that I am having weekly meetings, FB groups and real responsibilities, along with my own studies and of course my family and paying job, can I continue in the place that I have found myself?

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Fortunately for me I have all these organizers now to help me keep my plans moving forward.  I have discovered, that while I don’t have a “ton” of extra time, I have enough time to do all the things I want to do and still have time to make sure I am moving forward on my own path.  I am excited as my path is becoming clearer to me.  Who I am is beginning to crystalize and it involves all the things that matter to me.

Today I got to spend quality time with my family.  I was able to just be.  Dinner at the table with all the boys, time with the Navy Recruiter to set a date for swear in for my oldest step-son and a Costco trip with my youngest step-son.  With 4 boys it is nice to be able to have time with them.  And of course the family time with all 3 that live at home still is always a blessing.  Busy boys make it hard for us to do every night.

Now I am doing the “work”.  Whether it is for me, or for Sacred Mists, or even a little for school.  There is time for it all (including a little with my husband later).

How are you balancing everything?