There is always someone who has your back…

even if it is the energy surrounding you. You are never alone, even though you may feel like it. Situations arise and often we feel that there is no one who will support us through it, but the fact is, we don’t need someone to support us through it. If we just work hard through it, put good energy out about it (whether an outcome, or getting out of, or a gentle goodbye), we will find ourselves on the other side of it without needing anyone else.

Now that isn’t to say having someone else there would be nice. We all know that does not always happen though. The emotions and energy we feel when someone is there however, are things we can draw on for ourselves when we feel alone. That sense of support, companionship, trust, relief that there is someone who can help us…those are all things that can come from within, from the energy around us, and from our own wants and desires.

I am about to embark on some new adventures that I hope bring me to a place of peace, financial freedom, and travel ability. Right now I teach High School…that does not lend itself to any of those. This is the first time I have actually put it out there. I haven’t said anything to anyone as I begin taking classes and learning some new things, and I am working through my Brendon Burchard #hpxlife and the new planner that I just received. With these tools in my life I am hoping to find the energy, the dedication, and the intention to be the best me, with better goals.

Even if I find myself not being able to accomplish it all, I know that the learning I am going to be doing will benefit me where I am at. No matter what I win, I move forward, and I become a better me. This is all I can ask for, moving forward to a better me; the rest will fall into place around me as it is supposed to.

Today’s The Universe has Your Back card: The Universe Has MY Back

Intention: Trust that is will work the way it should

Personal Reflection: “Feeling alone/exposed is something we’ve all felt at some point. Not always, but vulnerable, attacked, or just left to face life with no help. This is a reminder that you are never truly alone. There is a greater energy, a greater being around us who, who always has us covered. Trusting that we are where we need to be when we need to be there is important. So is being open, receptive and willing to listen to what is being offered. The Universe has my back, it is time to grow, to shine, to be the best me, and let the rest go by the wayside.”

The Human Experience

We are so much more than our bodies. Yes, I said it. I know that it is difficult to believe, and hard to remember, but it is true. Our bodies carry our spirits and our spirits are here to learn. We are having a human experience, to grow within. These emotions, these experiences help us to become the people we want to be, will help to create the peace within that we are searching for.

Sometimes, it is difficult. When your body hurts, when you have a headache, or something isn’t functioning right it is difficult to remember that we are more than just the body, that we are energy and spirit, and that the body is a temporary thing for us to learn in, and from. Instead of focusing on the pain itself, or our inability to do something we want to do, we need to be working on what we can learn from it, what it is meant to show us about our inner strength and those around us.

We are here to get closer to love, our spirits are growing and wanting to be part of something larger. When the body is damaged is can be overwhelming, making us forget that this is all temporary, that our spirit is what we need to be focused on. We are creating a better place, by being better people.

That is not to say that we should be ignoring pain in the physical body, or not nurturing it, for it holds the spirit and we want it to be around for as long as possible to learn as much as possible. It simply means we want to remember that we are so munch more than just the physicality of the body itself. Yes, we want to nurture and nourish it, but we don’t want to become so focused on it that we forget what we are all about.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: I am a spirit having a human experience and I’m here to get closer to love.

Intention: I will allow the love surrounding me to enhance my experiences.

Personal Reflection: Understanding that I am more Ethan just the physical body I have travel in is always difficult, especially on days when I hurt or ache (like today with a migraine). Keeping in mind that love is the reason I am here will help keep my days on track. As I’ve talked about before love is more than romance, it is all things. Also, showing caring, empathy, and compassion bring you closer to love, letting others know someone cares is important and helps create a surrounding sense of love, allowing our spirit to continue its growth and understanding of the world.

Love Supports Me Growing

We are back on that universal idea of Love again today. The one that shows us love is more than just a romance word, but a word of support, of guidance, of encouragement. A word that encompasses so many more nuances than romance leaves us to believe.

We all know love means more, after all we have others in life we love: our parents, our children, our best friends, those people who have wormed their way into our hearts from somewhere. However, we rarely apply it to the things we do. How many of us can say we Love our jobs (and if you can you are very lucky)? How many of us can say we love our house? How many of us can truly say we feel that our dreams and aspiration are supported by love (from outside of us)? These are the questions we need to be asking, because if we aren’t answering in the affirmative, we may need to be reevaluating. Whether that is our command of our dreams, or our intentional actions, or our “Get It Done” attitude towards what we are doing, or not doing, a hard look at why we don’t feel supported in all those areas by love would be a good idea.

We often have jobs, houses, and dreams that we simply got to, or think about. It is rare that those are places and things we love. Yet, those are the things that should be inspiring us to be better, to live better, to be energized, to want to do things for others. So why aren’t they? How can we make them those centers of energy and love that make us want to grow? Love is a good place to start.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: There is a stream of love supporting my dreams.

Intention: I believe I am supported with love in what I do.

Personal Reflection: “As always the energy you put out is what you get back. I spent 8+ hours yesterday working on getting our room cleaned and rearranged. I have a vision of what it should be both for us to actually function in it and for the sacred space needed to grow our dreams forward. My changes and work were met with great joy and surprise and support. As I talked about modeling the small stuff, to hopefully get some better habits formed in both of us, the response was even positive – this can work with love and intention – everyone’s dreams are important, and as long as they are love fueled and supported they have a much better chance of coming to fruition.”

New Year, New Guidance

Happy New Year! 2019 is here. I am doing a number of things to keep myself on track already, besides the planner and the exercise, I am doing @MikeDooley ‘s 30 Days to Loving Your Life, which he opens up in December of every year and starts on the first day of the new year. This is my 2nd time doing this. It is a great program, that really makes you think about the bigger picture and your place in it. I am very excited to be doing this. Also if you don’t already get @notesfromtheuniverse you should! They are daily emails that simply remind you that you are already enough…in a thought provoking way.

Interestingly enough, as I sat down to do all this work this morning, Day 1 of the program is about your bigger general concept areas of improvement. Always a tough one, but then I drew my The Universe Has Your Back card for today’s intention and got “The moment I realign with love, clear direction is presented to me”. Of course, big idea for a big year. I always love synchronicity. And of course energy feeds off of itself, and what you put out there. So it only makes sense in my world that this would be the card.

I have changed it into my daily intention:

I will realign with love so clear direction is presented to me.

I also took the time to reflect of course. Remember that this is a bigger love than what you first think of when you hear the word. This is about realignment, not the love part. This is about recognition within yourself of what love is, how to love not just everyone else, but yourself, nature, the world around you. It is about appreciating and recognizing that love has been given to you, and that you are deserving of it and that you do know how to return it, not just in the form of physical things, but in the support you give.

This is a great time to remember this. To practice the intention of deliberately realigning with love, and to work on seeing that very clear path in front of you.

My personal reflection:

“Love is such a big word. it means so much more than what we, as mortals, ascribe to it. Realigning with love in that larger sense makes sense for this first day of a new year. Realigning with the emotion that brings so much with it. A better appreciation of everything, even those things that have seemed out of touch, or that we have approached with apprehension. If we, as individuals, realign with love, within ourselves, our outlook on everything changes, because our perspective changes, and new “eyes” bring new direction.”

So…..

It happens.  I missed a day. I was doing so well too! However, I have decided not to worry about it.  I realized it right around 11 p.m. last night and decided I was too tired to type something up.  It had really been one of those days.

I am a reader.  I love books.  The issue when I read is that I tune everything and everyone out.  I get so focused that I forget the real world is happening.  I had taken a break from reading last week to see what it felt like.  Go figure, dishes got done, things happened with the hubby, grades were inputted, litter was cleaned and the blog was going strong.  Yesterday, I fell into a book series, actually two.  This means I am not up moving, I forget to do the things I need/want to do and I just read.  Not really healthy, at all.

This also leads to short tempers, miscommunications (I’m not actually listening when people are talking), arguments and of course nothing happening.  By 11 p.m. I was truly wondering who would miss me if I wasn’t here today. Hubby and I had argued and then he left for work (early) so we didn’t really resolve, although we did text, my oldest child can’t make Mother’s Day, I did something to upset the daughter and she told the youngest  she “needs space”, although I can’t actually recall talking with her recently, and of course the argument.

Tears were my companion as I went to sleep last night, I woke up multiple times in the middle of the night, sometimes with anxiety, sometimes still crying.  Good news, here I am today.  Kids have projects to work on, AP exams to review for and the end of the year to look forward to.  My resolution, get through the day.

I pulled a tarot card today (something else I had not done yesterday), got the 3 of Pentacles again. Guess I need to be looking at the amazing kids I have, let them be busy in their own lives and minds, and figure out the new journey in front of me.  I must have done something right, 3 of Pentacles says it all paid off in a positive way.

Today the oils are Breathe Easier and a Citrus Cream Blend.  Happy scents, happy moods and just maybe a happy day!

Have a great one…I promise to get back to informative stuff soon.

Family Time

 

You may have noticed I am not posting as often as I want. First, I haven’t quite gotten the hand of writing and then scheduling a post. Second, I love to write them as I want to.  Now this doesn’t mean I won’t figure out the scheduling thing, but it does mean that sometimes there are two in one day.

I made a promise to blog daily.  I am working on that promise.  Sometimes though family comes first.  The past few weeks that was the case. There were things happening and the snowball effect came into play.

A few weeks ago I couldn’t find the official embossed copy of my step-son 1’s birth certificate (which he was going to need).  I stayed up way past bed-time on a work night looking for it while my husband was at work.  What that meant though was poor hubby had to find it when he got home from work.  So after a 12 hour night shift, he spent 2+ hours looking for the birth certificate.  He found it, in the most ridiculously easy of places of course, but it was way past his sleep time on a day when he had to work the night again.

I then rush out of work and home to see step-son a before his recruiter picks him up only to discover the recruiter is running late.  This is awesome in my opinion because I get to spend some quality time talking with kiddo about the upcoming physical and swear-in process, of which he is nervous because he knows nothing about it. I, very fortunately, have had several former students go through it.  So onto the phone I go and onto speaker said students go and discussions ensue about the physical, the process and the ceremony.

Recruiter comes to get step-son and off they go.  Now, through all of this, said husband is not sleeping.  He tried to sleep after finding birth certificate, but only slept for 30 minutes.  Lots of reasons, main one I think being he didn’t want to miss kiddo getting picked up. So, worked a 12 hour night shift, slept 30 minutes, must work another 12 hour night shift…oh boy.

family

 

Now I spend some time with tired and cranky husband.  We talk, go get the mail, do some very basic tasks as that is all his brain can do.  We cuddle and talk some more, then he gets ready for work.  It is decided I will drive him and pick him up.  I had taken today off so that I can be at the swear in ceremony (NOT going to miss that).

Now son 2 comes home with girlfriend.  We stop and eat pizza for dinner and chat with them.  Husband shows them a gross open heart video from a kiddo he has and they all have a good ooh and ahh over it.  Talk a little school, a little gaming, some about the internship and job prospects of the culinary world (which son 2 is going into) and let him know I will be taking husband to work.

While none of this seems important and seems very mundane, I feel like I have been hit by a school bus.  It was only day 2 of the school term where I had all new students (we are on a block schedule so we teach one set of class from August to December for 90 minutes each class and that equals 1 traditional year of curriculum.  Then January – June we get all new classes and all new kids.  It is like having 2 new school years in one school calendar) and I am teaching new to me classes.

What that means is when I get home from dropping hubby off at work, and feed the dogs, talk with son 2 and girlfriend for 15 minutes, I am ready to pass out…and it is 9:00 p.m. It also means that the blog for yesterday (see previous post) didn’t get done until this morning and today’s blog, which seems to be all about me, is right on its heels.

What today’s blog is really meant to do is to remind us all that life happens.  It is okay if something gets bumped a little.  Sometimes family needs to be in front of everything, because it can’t wait.  In those times, that is what we need to do.  It is just the fun, created family time that is needed.  When family says TIME, it will push its way forward and into whatever else you have planned and you need to listen.

I am off now to figure out how to schedule this to publish in a bit.  Then I’m going to watch Step-Son 1 swear into the Navy.  For me, that is all I need to focus on today.

How do you handle family time that forces its way in?  What do you do when you realize you need to focus a little more on what is calling and a little less on what you had planned?

 

Working and “Working”

 

So today I wanted to take a moment to address those who take on much,  not necessarily  too much, but maybe sometimes we take it all on.  I know that I work full-time as a high school teacher, who gives my personal number to the kids and other teachers, as well as email of course. I am also part of an amazing online magickal school, Sacred Mists.

I have been a part of Sacred Mists for 6 years.  I have completed my Level One and Level Two Priestess courses and am currently working on my Level Three.  With that move up and time spent there it brings more and more responsibility.  I have taken on a number of leadership roles in the past year at Sacred Mists and find myself often “working” on these things.

One of the questions I recently had to ask myself, as I stepped up to take on even more responsibility at the online school, was when is it too much?  At what point does it interfere with family, with personal time, with “real” work? Now that I am having weekly meetings, FB groups and real responsibilities, along with my own studies and of course my family and paying job, can I continue in the place that I have found myself?

balance

Fortunately for me I have all these organizers now to help me keep my plans moving forward.  I have discovered, that while I don’t have a “ton” of extra time, I have enough time to do all the things I want to do and still have time to make sure I am moving forward on my own path.  I am excited as my path is becoming clearer to me.  Who I am is beginning to crystalize and it involves all the things that matter to me.

Today I got to spend quality time with my family.  I was able to just be.  Dinner at the table with all the boys, time with the Navy Recruiter to set a date for swear in for my oldest step-son and a Costco trip with my youngest step-son.  With 4 boys it is nice to be able to have time with them.  And of course the family time with all 3 that live at home still is always a blessing.  Busy boys make it hard for us to do every night.

Now I am doing the “work”.  Whether it is for me, or for Sacred Mists, or even a little for school.  There is time for it all (including a little with my husband later).

How are you balancing everything?