I Control My Perspective

What I see, how I see it, what is makes me feel/think, that is all within my control. There is nothing buy my own thoughts, feelings, and look on the world that tells me how to see something, except of course when I allow those things to jade me. We often want others to tell us what they see, or to let us know when we see something different. The problem with that is that it can skew our own perception, influencing us to see things that aren’t there, or that aren’t accurate.

When we rely on our own instincts, on our beliefs to show us what is out there we are much better for it. This is how we can control the perspective from which things come at us, or with which we handle things thrown at us. If I want to be angry and negative when something changes, that is a choice I make, and yet I can also choose to handle it with grace and positivity, depending on how I choose to look at it. Do I see it as an obstacle that is unsurmountable, or rather a detour which is going to allow me to see something new and different altogether? Those are choices we make. Those are things we are in command of.

My belief in The Universe as energy and growth from all things being connected, means that I should be choosing to see what is truly there, and not just what I am being shown. Yet often I am clouded in how I view things. I allow the perceptions of others, the “truth” of what my eyes show me, to cloud what is there, rather than relying on why my instincts are saying, or closing my eyes and allowing the energy to tell me what is really going on.

This is an area of growth for me. Something I am promising to do, especially in my day job. Often times I glance over a classroom full of teenagers and I see…teenagers. That means I am missing the kid who didn’t get breakfast, or the one who just had a nasty breakup. I need to be controlling the perspective and trusting the energy that is being shown, if I open myself to it.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: When I lean on certainty and faith I change my mind about the world I see.

Intention: I will trust the Universe to show me what I need to see.

Personal Reflection: “I need to work on opening my mind to seeing beyond what my eyes are showing me. There is so much more and if I rely only on my eyes I will miss what I should be focusing on. As I am listening to meditations while I drive I have discovered my commute is faster and easier, because my eyes are not the only thing seeing. Trusting the energy to guide my “seeing” will help me all areas of growth.

Reminders…already

Today was the first day back to the real job, no students yet, but here I am, fixing up the classroom and getting ready. I teach at a school that is on a 4×4 block, meaning I have all new kids tomorrow, and new classes. So daunting to have two first days in a school year, but I’ve doing this for 7 years now, and getting used to the daunting is old hat.

What I am also used to is the apathy and blah I feel when it is time, after the break, to come back. This has, unfortunately led me to already not follow the routine I am setting for myself. Yep, I had a whole plan for 15 minutes of meditation this morning, and I hit snooze instead. Day 1 is a fail…good things tomorrow can be a Day 1 again. Cause wow! Anyone else ever have this issue? The desire, the want is there, and then you follow through with nothing.

I am the person in control. Brendon Burchard calls it command, my cards tell me I am the Dreamer of my Dream. Whatever you want to call it, it simply means that the choices we make in our lives we need to own. THIS choice, right now, is mine to make, and how I make it will effect the rest of my day, my energy, my week maybe. So make sure you are making the right choice when you are presented with them. I am going to…or at least try, from now on.

My reading today was a reminder that I need to be taking control and wrangling the feelings, the blah, the maybe tomorrows out of the way, and to command that which is mine to command, the Dream.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: I am the Dreamer of my Dream

Intention: I am in control of what I do, and the choice I make

Personal Reflection: “So here it is again. I know why. I didn’t do any of what I promised myself or the Universe I would do this morning. I was lazy yesterday and didn’t follow through on things I needed done for today. That led to me not being able to do some of the things I needed this morning. While everyday is a new one, clearly my energy responded with the cards that I needed. I am the only one in control and I need to get through my head. If I’m serious about change, I need to take control and mean what I say. Set the routine and follow through, do not get derailed, do not get lazy. I have control of the dream, and I need to make it happen, not let it die.”

Starting on the New Journey

With any journey there are multiple paths to choose from. Ahead of us lie those paths as they do every new year. I start this way every year, and every year I forget that I am in charge. I allow others, or circumstances, or things to get in the way of the journey, so I never even finish the path, starting at the beginning having not accomplished anything.

Today’s card was “I am the dreamer of my dream”. Never did anything fit my morning conversations, my own thoughts and feelings, and the card reminded me that I need to make sure to keep it going. I am the dreamer…and yet I allow others to control that, why? What makes it so easy to give up being the person in charge? Do I not want the responsibility or am I afraid of accepting the consequences? Those are not things I shirk in my life, so that can’t really be the thing.

I think I am afraid of the outcome being positive. Don’t we always look to self-sabotage? I think my self-sabotage is relinquishing control of where my life goes. So, this new journey, for me, it will be about remembering who is the Dreamer of my dream.

Card: I am the dreamer of my dream

Intention: My journey is only what I limit it to.

My personal thought: What an apropos card as Lady Lilyth and I were just talking and texting about this very thing. Change is within you, depends on your motivation, your inspiration, your dream. The biggest part is to celebrate even incremental changes. As the dreamer, being aware of even the smallest forward movement is important, so you’d an continue to celebrate your dream progress, reach further beyond what you were thinking as each small step moves your journey.

End of the Year Reflections…

I have this amazing friend, her name is Lady Lilyth. She is always introducing me to new ideas, deities, and things. She recently introduced me to The Universe Has Your Back, a deck of intention cards from Hay House (Find Gabrielle Bernstein’s stuff here). Well…they are more like reminder cards, but she had this great idea of turning each card that she drew into an intention. I loved it so much, that as I start this deck, I am going to borrow her idea.

As I go through the last weekend in 2018 I am realizing that I didn’t follow through on much of anything. I got a good start on a lot of things, but then I let them go. As I was thinking this and reflecting on the things that were great, but also on the things that really could have been better, I pulled the card “I do whatever it take to get closer to consciousness.” I laughed. I had a lot of good starts at this for the 2018 year, but I never let myself quite get there. For a reflection card it was amazing.

As I tried to turn it into an intention I wondered what for. I mean this was my reflection pull and so why did I need an intention? This caught me for a second, and catches me again as I type. Isn’t this the whole problem I faced for 2018? Why bother? Is it worth it? What is the gain from it? I realized as I was reflecting, I was following the same pattern I had been for the whole year. I do not intend for that to happen again this year. I am going to be better…even if I have to kick my own ass to do it.

So the Reflection Intention I came up with is “Whatever it takes, I will move closer to consciousness”. I am not going to allow myself to fail. That is what has happened in the past. Perhaps I have blamed others, or never even analyzed why something didn’t happen or work the way I anticipated. Not this time. This time I am moving myself forward, one small step at a time.

Here were my rambling thoughts on what I had pulled:

This is something I though of doing often, but did not make big enough steps towards. Most times giving up on myself,or not believing I could before anything could even manifest. I am good at beginning, bad at following through. There were some amazing moments in 2018 that got lost or lost momentum simply because I let them. This is my reminder that I can, will, and shall achieve what I want in 2019.

I have the Dragontree DreamBook and Planner for this year, I am working on my body through Pilates with Robin at the Balanced Life and with OmDaily and their 21 Day Goddess Workout and I am cleaning not just my room but sorting clothes, things, shoes and getting sacred space back into my life, something that has been missing as I have given up on accomplishing anything. This time next year, my biggest goal, is to be saying I accomplished all of this, plus whatever come after. I do not, and will not, be typing that I am doing all of these same things over again because I quit, but rather that I have reordered, or am doing something again because it worked!

Monday is as Monday does!

Yep, we have arrived at Monday.  I have discovered that Mondays come with their own unique set of issues.  One that I discovered today, language.  My seniors were finishing up their presentations.  Friday they had amazing presentations, great speech patterns, despite being nervous, and no language slippage.  Today…well let’s just say I had some great presentations that received poor marks due to poor speaking, inappropriate language, and slang!!!! Yes, slang in a formal presentation and project.  *sigh*

I know that the world is different for those who are younger, I teach high school and have for many, many years.  However, I also believe that if you are given a set of instructions, time to work in the classroom where questions can be answered by both the facilitator and those working around you, you should be able to create something according to those directions. Maybe I am just out of touch, but last time I checked, if I am asked to do something a specific way and I don’t, there are consequences.

After several false starts today, my students finally realized I was going to make them do their presentation until they met the guidelines, or they were taking a loss in points.  Most opted to re-do their presentations.  Some however, were content to just take a loss in points.  The understanding of why putting the work in to do something right, simply didn’t compute for them.

I ended up having to put a happy blend into the diffuser for my own soul.  In addition, I took several small trips to the outside so that I could let go of the frustration.  I took in the cool, crisp air and let go of the feelings building inside.  I have to realize I have done what I can, and continue to offer them the chance to grow and learn.  If they choose not to take the chance given, there is not much I can do about it.  Thank goodness I have a great green space right outside of my classroom door.  I can ground, center and come back in ready to tackle the next thing.

This weekend I accomplished nothing and it felt wonderful.  Today marks the beginning of a new week, and a new start.  I am going to stay the positive route, keep my mind and body moving forward and find some new blends and mixes for the diffuser.  Lavender and immune are still going at home as hubby still isn’t well, but I will be back soon with something new!

Today’s Tarot: Eight of Pentacles – Slow, steady work…labor intensive but commit with a sincere effort.

Keeping Track

So life happens and then well life happens.  In all of that sometimes you forget the things that are important that don’t seems quite as important.  Exercise, eating healthy, getting your thoughts in order and written down.

So now I am trying to catch up.  I have some papers to finish grading, some meal planning and grocery shopping to do, some cleaning that didn’t get done.  In addition of course, the dogs need cleaning up after and the rest of the house needs to be picked up.  There is stuff to list on eBay and a few small things that need looking at.

I did manage to get my Third Lesson in my Third Degree at Sacred Mists turned into my grader, which is very exciting as I loved that lesson.  Lesson 4 is going to take a lot of research so I am reading over the questions, have a few books to dig into and a lot of internet time to get started on. I do love the history questions, and they are so important to where we are now as a practice, but sometimes it is hard to get through.

I am not sure if I am on track to actually start my next step in the summer like I thought.  We are buying a house and taking a rather fun vacation (as the oldest child at home is going into the Navy), so money may not make it possible to start the next step until the fall, however it is still my intent to get a degree in spiritual mentoring. Sometimes we have to prioritize differently than we originally planned.

What do you do when things get out of whack?  I still have my planner and I love it.  I have ordered one that looks just a little different but from the same place (personal-planner.com).  I love that I can customize.  I still have some more to do when it arrives, but I am set for what I need/want it to look like.  It will have all the spaces I need.

My favorite planner stickers right now are the Grumble and Kind (Grumble and Kind).  They are fun and whimsical and the shop owner is an amazingly talented and responsive woman.  I have several others as well that I will detail this week.  I am excited to show off some of the planning when the new planner arrives.

How are you doing?  What stickers are you using?  I have a lot to show you this coming week and I can’t wait!

Weekend Work

While binge watching Grimm on Amazon and Playoff Football on network TV (with antennae) I managed to get 90% of my kitchen re-organized and cleaned. The coffee mugs and spices cupboard are left to organize and the stove top is left to clean. Anyone who knows me is aware of what a Herculean task this was. My oldest step-son came out of his cave for sustenance, blinked and said ” we have counter space, everywhere”. I responded “lets try to keep it that way” to which of course I received a blank stare back.

I also made super yummy homemade mac and cheese on Saturday and a great smelling chicken tortilla casserole on Sunday. Now I’m set to meal plan for the week and try to get to the grocery store. That may be tomorrow though. We have plenty of leftovers and my youngest son has a concert for choir this afternoon.

Oh in cleaning I managed to sell multiple appliances for which I will get 1 appliance that replaces them all. So more space in general. This is super exciting. Once I get my new appliance I will have one more single serve blender I can sell.

As someone who loves to practice kitchen witchery I am always relieved when I purge and clean. However, I suck at keeping it that way and then I get overwhelmed. So what are your tips for keeping a kitchen that regularly feeds 5, and has maybe 2 that clean it, clean? Let me know because I could use the tips. I am thinking that in a few months I may want to hire someone that comes every other week to help with bathrooms and general cleaning. Do you have an outside house keeper?

I am most excited because with the kitchen the way it is right now I can also get, a water garden and start growing my herbs again. That was the major motive behind cleaning it as thoroughly as I did. Hydroponic Gardens for the kitchen are super fun and easy and fresh herbs are the best. Do you have one? If so do you love it? What brand is it? Pros and cons?

Okay. Off to check the casserole and get ready for the concert. May your weekend be blessed.