The Human Experience

We are so much more than our bodies. Yes, I said it. I know that it is difficult to believe, and hard to remember, but it is true. Our bodies carry our spirits and our spirits are here to learn. We are having a human experience, to grow within. These emotions, these experiences help us to become the people we want to be, will help to create the peace within that we are searching for.

Sometimes, it is difficult. When your body hurts, when you have a headache, or something isn’t functioning right it is difficult to remember that we are more than just the body, that we are energy and spirit, and that the body is a temporary thing for us to learn in, and from. Instead of focusing on the pain itself, or our inability to do something we want to do, we need to be working on what we can learn from it, what it is meant to show us about our inner strength and those around us.

We are here to get closer to love, our spirits are growing and wanting to be part of something larger. When the body is damaged is can be overwhelming, making us forget that this is all temporary, that our spirit is what we need to be focused on. We are creating a better place, by being better people.

That is not to say that we should be ignoring pain in the physical body, or not nurturing it, for it holds the spirit and we want it to be around for as long as possible to learn as much as possible. It simply means we want to remember that we are so munch more than just the physicality of the body itself. Yes, we want to nurture and nourish it, but we don’t want to become so focused on it that we forget what we are all about.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: I am a spirit having a human experience and I’m here to get closer to love.

Intention: I will allow the love surrounding me to enhance my experiences.

Personal Reflection: Understanding that I am more Ethan just the physical body I have travel in is always difficult, especially on days when I hurt or ache (like today with a migraine). Keeping in mind that love is the reason I am here will help keep my days on track. As I’ve talked about before love is more than romance, it is all things. Also, showing caring, empathy, and compassion bring you closer to love, letting others know someone cares is important and helps create a surrounding sense of love, allowing our spirit to continue its growth and understanding of the world.

Reminders…already

Today was the first day back to the real job, no students yet, but here I am, fixing up the classroom and getting ready. I teach at a school that is on a 4×4 block, meaning I have all new kids tomorrow, and new classes. So daunting to have two first days in a school year, but I’ve doing this for 7 years now, and getting used to the daunting is old hat.

What I am also used to is the apathy and blah I feel when it is time, after the break, to come back. This has, unfortunately led me to already not follow the routine I am setting for myself. Yep, I had a whole plan for 15 minutes of meditation this morning, and I hit snooze instead. Day 1 is a fail…good things tomorrow can be a Day 1 again. Cause wow! Anyone else ever have this issue? The desire, the want is there, and then you follow through with nothing.

I am the person in control. Brendon Burchard calls it command, my cards tell me I am the Dreamer of my Dream. Whatever you want to call it, it simply means that the choices we make in our lives we need to own. THIS choice, right now, is mine to make, and how I make it will effect the rest of my day, my energy, my week maybe. So make sure you are making the right choice when you are presented with them. I am going to…or at least try, from now on.

My reading today was a reminder that I need to be taking control and wrangling the feelings, the blah, the maybe tomorrows out of the way, and to command that which is mine to command, the Dream.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: I am the Dreamer of my Dream

Intention: I am in control of what I do, and the choice I make

Personal Reflection: “So here it is again. I know why. I didn’t do any of what I promised myself or the Universe I would do this morning. I was lazy yesterday and didn’t follow through on things I needed done for today. That led to me not being able to do some of the things I needed this morning. While everyday is a new one, clearly my energy responded with the cards that I needed. I am the only one in control and I need to get through my head. If I’m serious about change, I need to take control and mean what I say. Set the routine and follow through, do not get derailed, do not get lazy. I have control of the dream, and I need to make it happen, not let it die.”

Starting on the New Journey

With any journey there are multiple paths to choose from. Ahead of us lie those paths as they do every new year. I start this way every year, and every year I forget that I am in charge. I allow others, or circumstances, or things to get in the way of the journey, so I never even finish the path, starting at the beginning having not accomplished anything.

Today’s card was “I am the dreamer of my dream”. Never did anything fit my morning conversations, my own thoughts and feelings, and the card reminded me that I need to make sure to keep it going. I am the dreamer…and yet I allow others to control that, why? What makes it so easy to give up being the person in charge? Do I not want the responsibility or am I afraid of accepting the consequences? Those are not things I shirk in my life, so that can’t really be the thing.

I think I am afraid of the outcome being positive. Don’t we always look to self-sabotage? I think my self-sabotage is relinquishing control of where my life goes. So, this new journey, for me, it will be about remembering who is the Dreamer of my dream.

Card: I am the dreamer of my dream

Intention: My journey is only what I limit it to.

My personal thought: What an apropos card as Lady Lilyth and I were just talking and texting about this very thing. Change is within you, depends on your motivation, your inspiration, your dream. The biggest part is to celebrate even incremental changes. As the dreamer, being aware of even the smallest forward movement is important, so you’d an continue to celebrate your dream progress, reach further beyond what you were thinking as each small step moves your journey.

End of the Year Reflections…

I have this amazing friend, her name is Lady Lilyth. She is always introducing me to new ideas, deities, and things. She recently introduced me to The Universe Has Your Back, a deck of intention cards from Hay House (Find Gabrielle Bernstein’s stuff here). Well…they are more like reminder cards, but she had this great idea of turning each card that she drew into an intention. I loved it so much, that as I start this deck, I am going to borrow her idea.

As I go through the last weekend in 2018 I am realizing that I didn’t follow through on much of anything. I got a good start on a lot of things, but then I let them go. As I was thinking this and reflecting on the things that were great, but also on the things that really could have been better, I pulled the card “I do whatever it take to get closer to consciousness.” I laughed. I had a lot of good starts at this for the 2018 year, but I never let myself quite get there. For a reflection card it was amazing.

As I tried to turn it into an intention I wondered what for. I mean this was my reflection pull and so why did I need an intention? This caught me for a second, and catches me again as I type. Isn’t this the whole problem I faced for 2018? Why bother? Is it worth it? What is the gain from it? I realized as I was reflecting, I was following the same pattern I had been for the whole year. I do not intend for that to happen again this year. I am going to be better…even if I have to kick my own ass to do it.

So the Reflection Intention I came up with is “Whatever it takes, I will move closer to consciousness”. I am not going to allow myself to fail. That is what has happened in the past. Perhaps I have blamed others, or never even analyzed why something didn’t happen or work the way I anticipated. Not this time. This time I am moving myself forward, one small step at a time.

Here were my rambling thoughts on what I had pulled:

This is something I though of doing often, but did not make big enough steps towards. Most times giving up on myself,or not believing I could before anything could even manifest. I am good at beginning, bad at following through. There were some amazing moments in 2018 that got lost or lost momentum simply because I let them. This is my reminder that I can, will, and shall achieve what I want in 2019.

I have the Dragontree DreamBook and Planner for this year, I am working on my body through Pilates with Robin at the Balanced Life and with OmDaily and their 21 Day Goddess Workout and I am cleaning not just my room but sorting clothes, things, shoes and getting sacred space back into my life, something that has been missing as I have given up on accomplishing anything. This time next year, my biggest goal, is to be saying I accomplished all of this, plus whatever come after. I do not, and will not, be typing that I am doing all of these same things over again because I quit, but rather that I have reordered, or am doing something again because it worked!

Tarot, Tarot and a little more Tarot!

So, I did it. I bit the bullet and joined the Tarot Reader’s Academy Summer School. That’s 13 Tarot courses on a variety of topics starting Solstice (June 21).

I am very excited to begin this next advancement in my Tarot journey and learn from a large variety of well known experts and practitioners in the field. The other thing that excites me about all of this is the sharing with you that I will get to do.

I am also going to start a 78 day tarot study and place it here. This is something else I am excited to be sharing. Beginning Monday, and the 77 days following, I will be posting about each of the tarot cards. Not until Monday because I need to go through my decks and see which one I would like to do this with. I only have 100 or so to choose from. I was planning on going through then this summer anyways, so why not this week/weekend?

I hope that as I study and learn I can pass new knowledge on to those of you who are here. That has always been my goal with the blog. I will be using meditations and diffusers with all I do, so you can still expect information on essential oils and blends, and great places for meditations.

Podcasts getting a shout out:

Tarot Visions

Stirring the Cauldron

Check them out.

Monday is as Monday does!

Yep, we have arrived at Monday.  I have discovered that Mondays come with their own unique set of issues.  One that I discovered today, language.  My seniors were finishing up their presentations.  Friday they had amazing presentations, great speech patterns, despite being nervous, and no language slippage.  Today…well let’s just say I had some great presentations that received poor marks due to poor speaking, inappropriate language, and slang!!!! Yes, slang in a formal presentation and project.  *sigh*

I know that the world is different for those who are younger, I teach high school and have for many, many years.  However, I also believe that if you are given a set of instructions, time to work in the classroom where questions can be answered by both the facilitator and those working around you, you should be able to create something according to those directions. Maybe I am just out of touch, but last time I checked, if I am asked to do something a specific way and I don’t, there are consequences.

After several false starts today, my students finally realized I was going to make them do their presentation until they met the guidelines, or they were taking a loss in points.  Most opted to re-do their presentations.  Some however, were content to just take a loss in points.  The understanding of why putting the work in to do something right, simply didn’t compute for them.

I ended up having to put a happy blend into the diffuser for my own soul.  In addition, I took several small trips to the outside so that I could let go of the frustration.  I took in the cool, crisp air and let go of the feelings building inside.  I have to realize I have done what I can, and continue to offer them the chance to grow and learn.  If they choose not to take the chance given, there is not much I can do about it.  Thank goodness I have a great green space right outside of my classroom door.  I can ground, center and come back in ready to tackle the next thing.

This weekend I accomplished nothing and it felt wonderful.  Today marks the beginning of a new week, and a new start.  I am going to stay the positive route, keep my mind and body moving forward and find some new blends and mixes for the diffuser.  Lavender and immune are still going at home as hubby still isn’t well, but I will be back soon with something new!

Today’s Tarot: Eight of Pentacles – Slow, steady work…labor intensive but commit with a sincere effort.

Meditation

We all know we should, even if it isn’t part of a religious practice, it is now common knowledge that meditation, or purposeful breathing, is a practice every person should put into their day for at least 15 minutes.

The Mayo Clinic says “The emotional benefits of meditation can include:

Meditation is a simple practice in its purpose.  It simply helps us keep grounded and do a check in with ourselves. We can stay present better, our minds don’t wander as much or worry as much if we meditate.

However, the practicality of incorporating meditation into the busy lives we all have is not quite as simple.  One would think, given that I am a practicing pagan/Wiccan that I would make this a part of my daily life.  The truth is I am also a full time High School teacher, a mom of 4 boys (2 of whom are at home still), and a wife. What that means in reality is that when I have 15 minutes, I don’t sit and meditate. I have it on my planner as a daily practice, but I haven’t been able to check it off in weeks.  I have three apps on my phone, two of which remind me I need to do this; I simply snooze them.

I am very aware that I need to get this practice back into my daily routines.  My feelings of being unsettled, ungrounded and flighty would all go away.  I also know that to do this I need to spend about 5 hours cleaning the space in my bedroom where my altar and meditation space is set up.  This has turned into the “house everything not in use” space for us. That alone is enough to make me give up.

This ties into yesterday’s post about everyday being a new day.  Today, when my husband goes to work (so really tonight), I clean my room until it is where I want it to be and where I need it.  My mental health isn’t horrid, but it is enough that it is beginning to wear on me.  When that happens, things slip and slide into oblivion.  I don’t want to clean, I don’t want to get off the couch, I don’t want to do anything.  This is a spot I have been in often lately, but I am working on it.

Today is the New Day/Fresh Start I was talking about yesterday.