I have this amazing friend, her name is Lady Lilyth. She is always introducing me to new ideas, deities, and things. She recently introduced me to The Universe Has Your Back, a deck of intention cards from Hay House (Find Gabrielle Bernstein’s stuff here). Well…they are more like reminder cards, but she had this great idea of turning each card that she drew into an intention. I loved it so much, that as I start this deck, I am going to borrow her idea.
As I go through the last weekend in 2018 I am realizing that I didn’t follow through on much of anything. I got a good start on a lot of things, but then I let them go. As I was thinking this and reflecting on the things that were great, but also on the things that really could have been better, I pulled the card “I do whatever it take to get closer to consciousness.” I laughed. I had a lot of good starts at this for the 2018 year, but I never let myself quite get there. For a reflection card it was amazing.
As I tried to turn it into an intention I wondered what for. I mean this was my reflection pull and so why did I need an intention? This caught me for a second, and catches me again as I type. Isn’t this the whole problem I faced for 2018? Why bother? Is it worth it? What is the gain from it? I realized as I was reflecting, I was following the same pattern I had been for the whole year. I do not intend for that to happen again this year. I am going to be better…even if I have to kick my own ass to do it.
So the Reflection Intention I came up with is “Whatever it takes, I will move closer to consciousness”. I am not going to allow myself to fail. That is what has happened in the past. Perhaps I have blamed others, or never even analyzed why something didn’t happen or work the way I anticipated. Not this time. This time I am moving myself forward, one small step at a time.
Here were my rambling thoughts on what I had pulled:
This is something I though of doing often, but did not make big enough steps towards. Most times giving up on myself,or not believing I could before anything could even manifest. I am good at beginning, bad at following through. There were some amazing moments in 2018 that got lost or lost momentum simply because I let them. This is my reminder that I can, will, and shall achieve what I want in 2019.
I have the Dragontree DreamBook and Planner for this year, I am working on my body through Pilates with Robin at the Balanced Life and with OmDaily and their 21 Day Goddess Workout and I am cleaning not just my room but sorting clothes, things, shoes and getting sacred space back into my life, something that has been missing as I have given up on accomplishing anything. This time next year, my biggest goal, is to be saying I accomplished all of this, plus whatever come after. I do not, and will not, be typing that I am doing all of these same things over again because I quit, but rather that I have reordered, or am doing something again because it worked!