Ah the joys of sleep…what are those?  Today, I couldn’t tell you.  After a wonderful evening out, a little shopping, some hanging out with the kids before they went off to do their own thing, up to bed I went.  Hubby turned on a movie I wasn’t even interested in seeing so he could go to sleep and I closed my eyes.  Then I opened them, less than 30 seconds later.  He was already asleep…granted he had worked the night before and had not done any sleeping yet, so I can understand that.  I don’t begrudge him sleeping when he hasn’t for 36+ hours. However, he sleeps with the remotes in his side, because he is usually up at night and I get up at 4:45 in the morning.

Did you know Lost in Space is actually an engaging movie at 9:30 at night? So engaging I didn’t make it to sleep until almost 1. Now, for those of you who engage in this late night behavior all the time you’ll be laughing. Remember though, my alarm is going off at 4:45. So I slog through 2 snoozes, rush through my shower and morning, grab a quick protein shake and zoom off to work and prep for the sub. Today I am out of the classroom to run state testing make-ups.

Once everything is going I realize I am still behind. No lunch, the Apple keyboard for the Pro isn’t working (known issue) and I’m just in a funk. I feel frazzled, even though I shouldn’t. Today is not a day I can step outside to get centered or that I can just take a break. So what do you do with no sleep and a discombobulated day? Well I would text my bestie, but she is on her way out of the country, so not happening.

The fact is, I haven’t figured it out yet.  I am hoping once I can get up and stretch that som doc this offness goes away on its own. I can’t be certain if it’s being in a room with the energy of kids, some of whom are stressed over this test and others who just don’t want to even be here, or if it is something else. For sure here at work there is an undercurrent of stress.  We are getting a new principal, there are some teacher things, and it is just the end of the year.

If, the end of the work day doesn’t bring a change, then tonight I will definitely be taking the time to meditate and take a walk around the park. A cleansing bath, with epsom salt and essential oils may also be on the list. One of the things I miss when I am out of my classroom is my diffuser.  I know it helps me get through my days, and it does the kids good room always feels and smells good.  So tonight at home the diffusers will also be going.

If you don’t use essential oils may isiggest you start small, but definite start. That’s another topic I’ll be delving i to soon, but they are something I believe if only for the mental breath we seem to take when something smells nice.

Today’s tarot card: The Lover’s:

Upright: Love, union, relationships, values alignment, choices

Reversed: Disharmony, imbalance, misalignment of values

Your first instinct will most likely be to associate this card as representing love, but, much like love, it does not possess a simple nature. Not only does love comes in many forms, but the Lovers may indicate important or difficult choices ahead in your life. This is bad, in that the choices it portends are generally mutually exclusive, paths to two very different futures, but also good, in that it also confirms that at least one of those paths will take you to a good place. As such, if you happen to find it in your spread, you should consider it carefully, but not fear it. It tells a story of difficult choices, likely painful, but that the correct decision and a positive outcome are within your grasp.