Welcome ~ May This Be a Safe Place

Hello.  My name is Heather Dawnamber.  I am starting this blog, which will grow with me as I finish my degrees, to help others.  My belief in the spiritual world, a world with magick and faeries and those entities who are all around us to help us, also brings with it a belief that we are here to help each other, that my place in this lifetime, on this plane, is one of listener, helper, counselor.  As I talk through my own things I hope that you will come to find you can ask questions, get answers and help and find someone who will listen to you.

I will often use tarot or oracle cards in my guidance.  For myself, for others and for everyday understanding of the world we live in. Please come in and stay a bit.  Ask a few questions and get a few answers.

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Magick in the Air

Storms are amazing. Here in California we are experiencing some weird weather…snow in the elevations, and rain, lightening, and high winds down in the Valley a bit. This type of weather is perfect for bringing natural cleansing and energy into your magick and home.

Wind and rain are amazing cleansers. I’ve been known to stand in the midddle of the yard in a big wind storm and accpet the wind into my body, sweeping out the negative and leaving me feeling refreshed and with room to fill my thoughts, my soul, my energy with positivity and balance.

Rain will do the same, although not always as fun as the wind. I do stand in the yard and let the rain wash the impurities from my skin, cleansing it in a way that a shower can’t. Letting the rawness, the pureness of the water take with it all of those things clinging to me that wear me down.

I am so excited for this storm that is beginning today. It is a long lasting one, so I will also put some of my stones out, that I carry with me most, to rinse them off and brush them out, and then on the next full moon reenergize them.

The lightening is such a perfect energizer. It brings raw energy into being and that can be harnessed, carefully, for the magick user. I often put stones out to gather energy to store for later use in spells and protection. Raw energy is great for gardens, gnome homes, and faery rings as well. Things grow better with energy pulsing around them, and of course the gnomes and faeries always love to gather energy in. Along with honey bread, I mean who wouldn’t want that.

So this week, and into the weekend, I will be cleansing my soul and body, and gathering energy in one of its purest forms. I love storms! What are you doing?

Create Space…and Time

So the thing is, I always find myself at a loss when someone perceives something I’ve done or said as racist or from their own inherent bias. I try, as a high school teacher especially, to make sure that I am always seeing things from as many angles and sides as I possibly can. Now I will never assume to be able to see things from a different color, that is not even possible. I do know when you come into my classroom though that you will be treated equally to everyone else.

With that said, when I have to send an email home based on an observed behavior (say sleeping in class), which was preceded by a statement regarding the class (I won’t be taking the AP Exam), and the work for the day was taking notes on how to best write an essay for the exam, it is not based on race, it is based on observation. When I have had conversations with you that don’t match what you know about your child, that doesn’t mean I am perceiving them by their color, but again on actual obsversation of their behavior in my classroom.

So when the reply is all about race, and how concerned you are about how I see your child, I promise, I am doing the best I can to make sure that all of our interactions are based around what I am observing in the classroom. I am not making any sort of judgements based on the race of your child. I have all cultures, races, and ethnicities through my room. I have been teaching for over 20 years, yours is not the first child to go through my classroom. Everything I say is based on what I am seeing, have heard from your child, or have witnessed as they go through their day.

So now I am finding I have to create space within myself to deal with this issue that feels like a personal attack. I also have to create an even safer space then I already have in my classroom, although I am not sure how to do that. I took the time to write an apology, to explain that the email was sent on observation, that you were not the only parent to get a similar email, and that at no time was this based on your student’s race, and in fact express how very saddened I am that this was your perception. I can only hope you are willing to see what I am saying.

In addition though I have to create space within my heart, and my new found sadness that you feel this from me, to not let it drown me, to make sure that I know where I was coming from, and to make sure that I do not take upon me that which is not mine to own. I also have to take the time to breathe. To recenter, reground, and remember who I am, and why I am here. In 20+ years this is not the first time, nor will it be the last, especially as the climate is ever changing around people. However, it will always throw me for a loop, and leave me ready to cry. I try so hard, and work daily at making sure all of my students know they are loved, along with pushing them hard.

Create space within yourself, within your emotions, within your environment to be able to deal with the unepxected. Then create the time to be able to process and deal with what was just thrown at you.

Blessed Imbolc….Blessed Candlemas

Brigid has lit the way for us to begin the lighted season of our year. What a wonderful time this will. As we say goodbye to Herne for the moment, and allow him the rest he so deserves, and the candles are lit to guide the light back into the world, we are all getting ready to let go of the shadows and step into the light.

If you walk a pagan/Wiccan path then today is the day to bless your candles for the year. The time to give them the energy of the beginning of the light time and our step out of the darkness and shadows. I just finished participating in an amazing ritual with Sacred Mists, and we were able to bless the candles from the shop with the energy generated, so all candles sent out are not Imbolc Blessed. What a great thought this is.

It is also a time to start that journey. Stretch and shake off the winter blues and darkness and begin the lighted path. We took January to lay the groundwork, to start the habits, get into the mode and figure out the plan. Today, Imbolc, Candlemas, February 1…today is the day to walk the path you have set the foundation for.

What path are you embarking on? I of course have several, but the big one for me is the Life Coach Certification. I am already working on it, today I recommit and refocus to make it a reality. I have also recommitted to making sure I finish my Priestess Certification, and stay up on my lessons there. I am a strong individual, and part of who I am is to continue to grow in what I do.

I am so excited to say that we are traveling to Georgia in April (and South Carolina for a Navy graduation), and then to Puerto Rico in June. In between I am sure I will get up to see my parents in Washington State, and maybe we will even get to Arizona. Nevada is a given as I am only 2 hours from Reno or Tahoe, but Las Vegas in November is back on the agenda. We are also intending to take some time in January as several big conventions happen that we want to hit up.

We have been talking to the retirement specialist, which is exciting even though it is several (13) years off. It is exciting to see what we still be able to afford and do, the planning is commencing. This is a time of beginnings and we have lots that we are starting, even if the evolution is years away. We are also planning the sale of our house in 3-5 years…and so the updating is beginning there as well.

Imbolc, the time of renewal, or beginnings, of the light returning. This is what today is about. Take the step, begin the journey. Let me know what it is you are getting ready to embark on.

End of the month reflection…

So, here we are, at the end of January. I am at a conference tomorrow and am not sure how much time I will have or if I will have any time to get a blog post up, so I am reflecting and writing today.

It was a great month, a tough month, a look at yourself month, a begin again and then again month. In short, it was a typical January. The good thing about Januarys is that they are followed by Februarys. The shortest month of the year, the best month to keep going, because it is easier to see the end of the month, to set goals and not feel like the end is forever away.

Also, it has some interesting things associated with it. It is National Black History Month, the Valentine’s Day Massacre, Valentine’s Day, Groundhog Day, President’s Day, several Presidential birthdays…There are so many things going on in February and I just listed a few of them. For such a short month it is packed full of things.

January though, it holds one of my favorite days. National Compliment Day is in January. It is a day when it is acceptable, and in fact encouraged to give compliments out through the day. I was lucky enough to help the Student Government students at my school organize an entire week around this day. It felt great, it felt promising, and while it didn’t fail miserably, I know it was not quite what we were expecting.

Part of my reflection revolves around some questions in Brendon Burchard’s High Performance Planner. Questions that tie right into why National Compliment Day didn’t go as well as we expected. One of those is “Someone I could surprise with a note, gift, or sign of appreciate is…” How often do we really reflect on this, or follow through with it? I am one of those rare people that often send out little messages, or float through an office on campus and hand out hugs. I know though, that this is not the norm. So asking people, high school students especially, to actually write a nice note about someone that they will receive, can be daunting to them. We don’t require them to be nice on a daily basis, or to think outside of themselves to what might make someone else smile through the day.

The other question is “Something that could have helped me feel more connected to others today would have been…” This again leads right into the idea that we don’t connect personally with others on a regular basis. Not only does Brendon’s planner make me think about and follow through on these daily, but it has helped me to see that we don’t require it of others. My students would rather plug in, work online, and barely deal with each other if I let them get away with it. I however require that they turn their phones in at the beginning of the period and interact not only with each other, but with me as well.

This interaction though, it isn’t always genuine. I don’t actually make them answer the same questions I’m answer, although it might be a good idea. In fact, I think that I will start making this a part of their daily thought process in February. How are they deliberately, genuinely making others feel good, and how could they have actually made better connections on their own.

Just typing out this reflection has already made me a better person, a better teacher, a learner, and a doer. I didn’t even touch on my own personal fails, of which there were plenty. I am choosing not to dwell on what I didn’t do, but rather how I can better accomplish what I need to continue doing.

Drop me a comment and let me know how your January went. Have you reflected yet?

Productivity

In short, I feel most productive when…

If you had to answer that what would your answer be? Would it be when all the tasks are done? When you are actively doing something on the to be done list? When your body is moving? When your brain is moving?

I have realized that I don’t really know what the word means to me. One of the questions on the #highperformanceplanner from #brendonburchard is “If one word could describe the type of person you want to be today [sic]”…and I tend to write productive…and then for the question about how I would know today was a great success I always write “relief”.

As I was contemplating this today I realized that didn’t seem very forward moving, or even very coach like. It seemed like it was very task oriented, and that the tasks I was tending to focus on were not the ones that would move my ideas, my projects, or my goals forward, but rather the menial ones that have to be done day to day.

Now, I know that there are days when that is all some of us can manage. Trust me, I actually wrote “shower” down the other day in a time slot to make myself get up and get it done. But on the daily, is that the person I want to be? Is that who I really am and if so how do I get out of that rut?

So now I am working on defining productive to work for me. To be different, to be more, to create the high performance experience (#hpxlife) I am truly looking for to be able to help provide for and create a thriving life for my family that gives us all the ability to continue growing.

What’s Your Mindset?

As a teacher we have recently been hearing the catchphrase “growth mindset”. We are integrating training or rather recognition or a growth mindset versus a limiting mindset into our Freshman Seminar courses, and all teachers are supposed to view all of their students with a growth mindset and encourage those who are sleeping through class or talking back, to reevaluate how they view things so that they can learn to develop this “growth mindset”. But really, what is it? We can research and read definitions, and do practice lessons to take back to the classroom, but what does that really mean for us? And beyond us, what does it mean for the students? Or if you aren’t a teacher by day, what would that mean to you?

I am working on making myself better. Maybe you noticed that from all of the blog posts prior to this one. I am learning to be a life coach (something I discovered today I already do a lot of), and I am reading Brendon Burchard’s book High Performance Habits. I was in the process of perusing the first chapter before I took to it with a highlighter and colored pens, and discovered part of the catchphrase, right there. “The mindset you choose to adopt” is the number one bullet point on the malleable things that effect our performance and our ability to change and improve.

So now I am thinking, how do I take this idea, merge it with something I already know too much about, and create a way to make them work for me. And then I realized something else, my mindset was instantly one of a growth and inquisitive nature. I knew a little about this in general, a lot about it in education, and now I wanted to work on how to move it into my new outlook on life, how to apply it to my own growth and attitude about what I am doing.

My changes are not just in learning, but in how I approach my home and keeping it organized and clean, and how I get the outside tasks done for those things I am responsible for, and how to nurture my spirit all within this new mindset, not just of growth but of love, of responsibility, of not being broken but rather on a different path.

What’s your mindset? Do you need help shifting it? What do you do if you find yourself not where you want to be? Feel free to drop me a message!

There is always someone who has your back…

even if it is the energy surrounding you. You are never alone, even though you may feel like it. Situations arise and often we feel that there is no one who will support us through it, but the fact is, we don’t need someone to support us through it. If we just work hard through it, put good energy out about it (whether an outcome, or getting out of, or a gentle goodbye), we will find ourselves on the other side of it without needing anyone else.

Now that isn’t to say having someone else there would be nice. We all know that does not always happen though. The emotions and energy we feel when someone is there however, are things we can draw on for ourselves when we feel alone. That sense of support, companionship, trust, relief that there is someone who can help us…those are all things that can come from within, from the energy around us, and from our own wants and desires.

I am about to embark on some new adventures that I hope bring me to a place of peace, financial freedom, and travel ability. Right now I teach High School…that does not lend itself to any of those. This is the first time I have actually put it out there. I haven’t said anything to anyone as I begin taking classes and learning some new things, and I am working through my Brendon Burchard #hpxlife and the new planner that I just received. With these tools in my life I am hoping to find the energy, the dedication, and the intention to be the best me, with better goals.

Even if I find myself not being able to accomplish it all, I know that the learning I am going to be doing will benefit me where I am at. No matter what I win, I move forward, and I become a better me. This is all I can ask for, moving forward to a better me; the rest will fall into place around me as it is supposed to.

Today’s The Universe has Your Back card: The Universe Has MY Back

Intention: Trust that is will work the way it should

Personal Reflection: “Feeling alone/exposed is something we’ve all felt at some point. Not always, but vulnerable, attacked, or just left to face life with no help. This is a reminder that you are never truly alone. There is a greater energy, a greater being around us who, who always has us covered. Trusting that we are where we need to be when we need to be there is important. So is being open, receptive and willing to listen to what is being offered. The Universe has my back, it is time to grow, to shine, to be the best me, and let the rest go by the wayside.”