Welcome ~ May This Be a Safe Place

Hello.  My name is Heather Dawnamber.  I am starting this blog, which will grow with me as I finish my degrees, to help others.  My belief in the spiritual world, a world with magick and faeries and those entities who are all around us to help us, also brings with it a belief that we are here to help each other, that my place in this lifetime, on this plane, is one of listener, helper, counselor.  As I talk through my own things I hope that you will come to find you can ask questions, get answers and help and find someone who will listen to you.

I will often use tarot or oracle cards in my guidance.  For myself, for others and for everyday understanding of the world we live in. Please come in and stay a bit.  Ask a few questions and get a few answers.

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There is always someone who has your back…

even if it is the energy surrounding you. You are never alone, even though you may feel like it. Situations arise and often we feel that there is no one who will support us through it, but the fact is, we don’t need someone to support us through it. If we just work hard through it, put good energy out about it (whether an outcome, or getting out of, or a gentle goodbye), we will find ourselves on the other side of it without needing anyone else.

Now that isn’t to say having someone else there would be nice. We all know that does not always happen though. The emotions and energy we feel when someone is there however, are things we can draw on for ourselves when we feel alone. That sense of support, companionship, trust, relief that there is someone who can help us…those are all things that can come from within, from the energy around us, and from our own wants and desires.

I am about to embark on some new adventures that I hope bring me to a place of peace, financial freedom, and travel ability. Right now I teach High School…that does not lend itself to any of those. This is the first time I have actually put it out there. I haven’t said anything to anyone as I begin taking classes and learning some new things, and I am working through my Brendon Burchard #hpxlife and the new planner that I just received. With these tools in my life I am hoping to find the energy, the dedication, and the intention to be the best me, with better goals.

Even if I find myself not being able to accomplish it all, I know that the learning I am going to be doing will benefit me where I am at. No matter what I win, I move forward, and I become a better me. This is all I can ask for, moving forward to a better me; the rest will fall into place around me as it is supposed to.

Today’s The Universe has Your Back card: The Universe Has MY Back

Intention: Trust that is will work the way it should

Personal Reflection: “Feeling alone/exposed is something we’ve all felt at some point. Not always, but vulnerable, attacked, or just left to face life with no help. This is a reminder that you are never truly alone. There is a greater energy, a greater being around us who, who always has us covered. Trusting that we are where we need to be when we need to be there is important. So is being open, receptive and willing to listen to what is being offered. The Universe has my back, it is time to grow, to shine, to be the best me, and let the rest go by the wayside.”

Healing is a Process

I haven’t pulled a card yet for today. I’m going to…and I’ll add it to the post before I publish. I wanted to just get a few thoughts down before I did anything else. It has not been easy. It has also only been a few days, even though we knew about 12 hours before the real decline that it was coming. I was able to process and be calm, call on the spirits to help him cross peacefully, and to bring healing energy to my husband and I and the house before it even happened. Even with my own beliefs, my own brand of processing, I realized late last night that you still have to grieve. My husband broke down as we were going to sleep, finally able to cry and let go some. This morning I saw that he was able to say thank you on the FaceBook post he had made, the first time he had even looked at it. This morning he texted me at work to say that he was “good”, and he even stopped and got himself coffee at Dutch Bros since they are doing a drive for the Davis Officer that was killed. It was nice to see/hear/read that he was doing a few normal things. This doesn’t mean we aren’t sad, it doesn’t mean we don’t still look for what is missing, but I am glad that he isn’t sitting on the couch not getting up anymore. To heal you have to accept, and begin to live each day differently. I think we are finally going to be able to start that…

What this means for me is that I will be able to begin the process. I went back to work right away, and needed to take care of them and be strong. When he goes to work this weekend, I will be able to allow myself to recognize the hole and the whole of what has happened.

I do feel derailed. I am still waiting on my High Performance planner to arrive, and with this as well I feel like I have been set back in my goals, my progress. I looked at the checklist on the whiteboard this morning and even the everyday tasks haven’t been done. Time to take charge again, and to allow myself the feelings, but not allow them to dictate my life.

I have enrolled in a course on how to be a life coach. It is self-paced, and I want to find the time to be able to get to it. I have my tasks for Sacred Mists that I need to finish up, and work on my 3rd Degree Course so that I can earn that title as well. I have plans, and none of them involved being stagnate or living in a house where the daily tasks fall by the wayside. Need to get things done…processes can take a while, but you can’t just sit and wait for them to be done.

I bought two new tarot decks that arrived at the beginning of the week, and I haven’t even opened them. Something I need to do…for me. I know what great things the weekend has in store for me. I am ready to get to them. I know that I am allowed to grieve, I also know that I can’t allow it to be all consuming, for any of us. Time to sage the house, burn some cleansing candles, and begin the process of moving forward.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: I find a deeper meaning and personal growth amid the discomfort.

Intention: I will embrace the feelings and move forward

Personal Reflection: Of course. I don’t even know w hey I’m surprised anymore. I do this everyday, pretty much, and I’m still surprised when it happens, almost everyday. As we go through painful experiences, recognizing that they help us grow, become more empathetic, and allow us new opportunity to create what we need in our lives is very important. Don’t run from the pain, grow in a healthy, positive way.

We are what we expect…

Yep…what we put out there, is usually what we can expect to get back. That sucks on those bad days, or those emotional days. We never know what it is going to look like. And trying to hold it in, well that doesn’t work either, cause energy doesn’t stay encased.

This isn’t the post I was expecting either on Monday or Today. I will be back tomorrow. We had to let our English Mastiff go over the rainbow yesterday and it is taking a few days of adjustment and to grieve. I promise, tomorrow…

The Human Experience

We are so much more than our bodies. Yes, I said it. I know that it is difficult to believe, and hard to remember, but it is true. Our bodies carry our spirits and our spirits are here to learn. We are having a human experience, to grow within. These emotions, these experiences help us to become the people we want to be, will help to create the peace within that we are searching for.

Sometimes, it is difficult. When your body hurts, when you have a headache, or something isn’t functioning right it is difficult to remember that we are more than just the body, that we are energy and spirit, and that the body is a temporary thing for us to learn in, and from. Instead of focusing on the pain itself, or our inability to do something we want to do, we need to be working on what we can learn from it, what it is meant to show us about our inner strength and those around us.

We are here to get closer to love, our spirits are growing and wanting to be part of something larger. When the body is damaged is can be overwhelming, making us forget that this is all temporary, that our spirit is what we need to be focused on. We are creating a better place, by being better people.

That is not to say that we should be ignoring pain in the physical body, or not nurturing it, for it holds the spirit and we want it to be around for as long as possible to learn as much as possible. It simply means we want to remember that we are so munch more than just the physicality of the body itself. Yes, we want to nurture and nourish it, but we don’t want to become so focused on it that we forget what we are all about.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: I am a spirit having a human experience and I’m here to get closer to love.

Intention: I will allow the love surrounding me to enhance my experiences.

Personal Reflection: Understanding that I am more Ethan just the physical body I have travel in is always difficult, especially on days when I hurt or ache (like today with a migraine). Keeping in mind that love is the reason I am here will help keep my days on track. As I’ve talked about before love is more than romance, it is all things. Also, showing caring, empathy, and compassion bring you closer to love, letting others know someone cares is important and helps create a surrounding sense of love, allowing our spirit to continue its growth and understanding of the world.

I Control My Perspective

What I see, how I see it, what is makes me feel/think, that is all within my control. There is nothing buy my own thoughts, feelings, and look on the world that tells me how to see something, except of course when I allow those things to jade me. We often want others to tell us what they see, or to let us know when we see something different. The problem with that is that it can skew our own perception, influencing us to see things that aren’t there, or that aren’t accurate.

When we rely on our own instincts, on our beliefs to show us what is out there we are much better for it. This is how we can control the perspective from which things come at us, or with which we handle things thrown at us. If I want to be angry and negative when something changes, that is a choice I make, and yet I can also choose to handle it with grace and positivity, depending on how I choose to look at it. Do I see it as an obstacle that is unsurmountable, or rather a detour which is going to allow me to see something new and different altogether? Those are choices we make. Those are things we are in command of.

My belief in The Universe as energy and growth from all things being connected, means that I should be choosing to see what is truly there, and not just what I am being shown. Yet often I am clouded in how I view things. I allow the perceptions of others, the “truth” of what my eyes show me, to cloud what is there, rather than relying on why my instincts are saying, or closing my eyes and allowing the energy to tell me what is really going on.

This is an area of growth for me. Something I am promising to do, especially in my day job. Often times I glance over a classroom full of teenagers and I see…teenagers. That means I am missing the kid who didn’t get breakfast, or the one who just had a nasty breakup. I need to be controlling the perspective and trusting the energy that is being shown, if I open myself to it.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: When I lean on certainty and faith I change my mind about the world I see.

Intention: I will trust the Universe to show me what I need to see.

Personal Reflection: “I need to work on opening my mind to seeing beyond what my eyes are showing me. There is so much more and if I rely only on my eyes I will miss what I should be focusing on. As I am listening to meditations while I drive I have discovered my commute is faster and easier, because my eyes are not the only thing seeing. Trusting the energy to guide my “seeing” will help me all areas of growth.

Reminders…already

Today was the first day back to the real job, no students yet, but here I am, fixing up the classroom and getting ready. I teach at a school that is on a 4×4 block, meaning I have all new kids tomorrow, and new classes. So daunting to have two first days in a school year, but I’ve doing this for 7 years now, and getting used to the daunting is old hat.

What I am also used to is the apathy and blah I feel when it is time, after the break, to come back. This has, unfortunately led me to already not follow the routine I am setting for myself. Yep, I had a whole plan for 15 minutes of meditation this morning, and I hit snooze instead. Day 1 is a fail…good things tomorrow can be a Day 1 again. Cause wow! Anyone else ever have this issue? The desire, the want is there, and then you follow through with nothing.

I am the person in control. Brendon Burchard calls it command, my cards tell me I am the Dreamer of my Dream. Whatever you want to call it, it simply means that the choices we make in our lives we need to own. THIS choice, right now, is mine to make, and how I make it will effect the rest of my day, my energy, my week maybe. So make sure you are making the right choice when you are presented with them. I am going to…or at least try, from now on.

My reading today was a reminder that I need to be taking control and wrangling the feelings, the blah, the maybe tomorrows out of the way, and to command that which is mine to command, the Dream.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: I am the Dreamer of my Dream

Intention: I am in control of what I do, and the choice I make

Personal Reflection: “So here it is again. I know why. I didn’t do any of what I promised myself or the Universe I would do this morning. I was lazy yesterday and didn’t follow through on things I needed done for today. That led to me not being able to do some of the things I needed this morning. While everyday is a new one, clearly my energy responded with the cards that I needed. I am the only one in control and I need to get through my head. If I’m serious about change, I need to take control and mean what I say. Set the routine and follow through, do not get derailed, do not get lazy. I have control of the dream, and I need to make it happen, not let it die.”

Love Supports Me Growing

We are back on that universal idea of Love again today. The one that shows us love is more than just a romance word, but a word of support, of guidance, of encouragement. A word that encompasses so many more nuances than romance leaves us to believe.

We all know love means more, after all we have others in life we love: our parents, our children, our best friends, those people who have wormed their way into our hearts from somewhere. However, we rarely apply it to the things we do. How many of us can say we Love our jobs (and if you can you are very lucky)? How many of us can say we love our house? How many of us can truly say we feel that our dreams and aspiration are supported by love (from outside of us)? These are the questions we need to be asking, because if we aren’t answering in the affirmative, we may need to be reevaluating. Whether that is our command of our dreams, or our intentional actions, or our “Get It Done” attitude towards what we are doing, or not doing, a hard look at why we don’t feel supported in all those areas by love would be a good idea.

We often have jobs, houses, and dreams that we simply got to, or think about. It is rare that those are places and things we love. Yet, those are the things that should be inspiring us to be better, to live better, to be energized, to want to do things for others. So why aren’t they? How can we make them those centers of energy and love that make us want to grow? Love is a good place to start.

Today’s The Universe Has Your Back card: There is a stream of love supporting my dreams.

Intention: I believe I am supported with love in what I do.

Personal Reflection: “As always the energy you put out is what you get back. I spent 8+ hours yesterday working on getting our room cleaned and rearranged. I have a vision of what it should be both for us to actually function in it and for the sacred space needed to grow our dreams forward. My changes and work were met with great joy and surprise and support. As I talked about modeling the small stuff, to hopefully get some better habits formed in both of us, the response was even positive – this can work with love and intention – everyone’s dreams are important, and as long as they are love fueled and supported they have a much better chance of coming to fruition.”